Deer Tick - Ashamed lyrics

I am the boy your mother wanted you to meet
But, I am broken and torn
With halos at my feet
And with your purest light
Why don't you shine on me
Well, I should've been an angel
But, I'm too dumb to speak

Now as she gets nearer
The visions get clearer
I'm kneeling, weeping, I will hold her dear
Oh, If your eyes water
You got your favorite number to spin
And oh, ah oh, ah oh, whoa, whoa
What a crying shame, a crying shame
What we became

Murdered my throat
Screaming bloody all night
Hit him with a book and how he crumbles
Oh, you should have seen
How the arches tumble
They're golden no more
Now I'm smiling in my blood

I'm caught in a whirlwind
I'm going to heaven
I'm standing on trial and
It's painted on canvas
An eternal testament to how
We are so animalistic

And oh, ah oh, ah oh
What a crying shame, a crying shame
What we became

I bowed my head in the
Morning light and said goodnight
I held her hand and I, I kissed her eyes
Stumbled down the stairs and
Hang myself on high
And I started for the town
Lyin' in the front yard, i died