Deer Tick - Strange, Awful Feeling lyrics

Well, I lost you while staring at a wall
No mirror's work, the change was inevitable

What a strange and awful feeling
Such a strange and awful feeling
I don’t want you to know

Identity blurs with identity down
In the blood you're changing yourself
Not for you but for who you were
What a strange and awful feeling
Such a strange and awful feeling
I don't want you to know

It’s known I've walked this road before
And rapped upon the devil's door
To see if he'd let an old friend in again

Sink inconsistently into the mist
Of my shroud my fingers are blistered
I hope I ain't thinking aloud

I see you when you're sleeping
I know when you're awake
I don't want you to know

We stare at the faith we left
Waiting to rust in the hall
Our land is in pain and the
Future is stuck in the doorway

What a strange and awful feeling
Such a strange and awful feeling
I don’t want you to know