Eliza McLamb - Pulp lyrics

Nose to nose I hold you
So close in the moment
Though I know I feel it slipping away
I told you to shut your
Mouth when you started talking
About passing years, passing days

I've been having visions of you as a baby
Maybe part of it is all in my head
I don't think I understand time as a line
I wasn't meant to live it like this I guess
And I don't know how you people do it
See it all without the urge
To fall right through it

Crack open a photo book
Sit alone at 20 and look for
A sign that I was there
Staring to the ceiling and
Contemplate the feeling
Of total obsoletion, dust, and despair

And yet I can't stop trying
To hold every beautiful thing in my hands
I suck the pulp until I choke on
What was never meant to last
And still I hope
Although I know I’m never gonna
Get it all back

I feel limited in my constant sensitivity
To what I know will hurt me soon
Every day I spend in the
Sun I waste thinking of
What will come when it’s time for the moon

If I have to love you
I don't know how to do it
Without holding on too tight
And I don't want to leave you but I might
Only 'cause I don't know how
To do this right

Yet I can't stop trying
To hold every beautiful thing in my hands
I suck the pulp until I choke on
What was never meant to last
And still I hope
Although I know I’m never gonna
Get it all back

Oh, just hold me
Tell me I can hold it all too
Tell me something small
Lie so I can make it through
Tell me there’s another side
And I’ll be with it again
Fake omnipotence so I can crawl back into bed