Esperanza Spalding - The Longing Deep Down (Abdominal Portal) lyrics

Belonging deep down inside is longing
Is longing is longing
Is to be

I too would rather run, bound
Cactus head to cactus head
Stimulating laps flung wide
The distance well rounded a working circle
All of our adjacent points
Equally distant from the center
Fulcrum self, it's fruit and it's pit so deep
The whole current of being rises through it
There between your crotch and belly button

Lonely river bottom
Longing to be entertained
Stimulating laps flung wide wait, wait
Before you run cactus

Wait, wait wait just say, say
Please, with your deep dimension close
Say which is worse, the
Longing to arrive there
Or the terror of approach?
But maybe, someday, try
Mid-slosh through intermittent voids
Try standing long enough to
Toe the still beneath
And dare an inward leap
Cupping your feet around that
Looming orb below

Glowing with the shape of real things standed
Other murky stones enlighten too
To guide you (No, we can't say home)
For deep down there is no promise
Only longing but deep down the
Longing promises to be your own

Longing deep down inside if longing
If longing if longing
Is to be longing deep down inside
Is fucking hard it's fucking hard
It's fucking hard to be longing
Deep down inside is longing
Is longing is longing
Is to be longing deep down inside is
Fucking hard it's fucking hard
It's fucking hard to be
It is fucking hard to be longing
And at the same time feel your own belonging

Where it's real deep down
Dep down deep
Down