Flowz Dilione, Dwizofoz - Chasing Ghosts lyrics

I can't do it bruv, I'm tired and stressed
My mind is a mess
I'm sick of living life in my head
Anxiety is like a knife in my chest
It makes it hard to breathe
My heart is weak and it's dying for strength
I've seen shit that I
Still fuckin dream about
I need to blow my brains on the
Wall to let my demons out
I used to have a family but
I don't see them now
That's why I'm so closed off and
Hardly ever leave the house

Look me in the eyes bruv, listen to my words
I know this shit's been hurtin since
The minute of your birth
And you're feeling like where you belong
Isn't here on earth
But, you got too much to live for
And this decision is the worst
Plus your little brothers need you
River's just a verse
Without you Shaff will wind up
In prison or a hearse
I know you wanna live to
See your missus giving birth
And be there for your child
And be the dad that you deserve
(you deserve)

But in my head
They'll be better when I'm gone
When I'm dead I hope they
Don't remember me at all
When they send me to the morgue
I don't wanna be identified
I don't wanna be seen by any
Family or friends of mine
Especially Riv, the best friend I ever had
I've already broken his heart and
I can't handle that
I'm too weak to carry the
Weight like cheap anvil straps
Everything I've ever had is gone and
I can't get it back

Well if for no one else, do it for you bruv
Do it to say fuck your past
Do it for your future
You're stronger than you know bruv
I'm telling you
I'll be by your side every step
If you want I'll go to hell with you
And pull you out the other side breathin
I know that's not you wanting to die bro
That's just the pipe speakin
Ice weakens the will to fight demons
I've seen it i won't let it happen to you
You know what I'm sayin is true

If not for me I should prevail for them
Cause they have everything to lose and
I'm just waitin for death
I say I'm strong and loyal
If I was I'd stay to the end
And hold my whole fam down till
The die that I'm dead
I'd be the king that my queen deserves
A brother to Shaff
Sittin next to Riv laughing with
My mum and my dad but, I'm not so I'm
Sittin drunk mumbling raps
Depressed confessions sippin liquor with a
Gun in my lap

See that's the you I know
The you I know you wanna be
I know you at war with yourself
And all you want is peace
But brother please, just give me the piece
It's not your time to go
I'm talkin to Taylor now I'm
Not talkin to Flowz
I just wish I would've told you this sooner
We can't change the past but you
Could've had a whole different future
And I just can't let go
Listening to the echoes of your voice
While I'm sitting here talkin
To your headstone

We are gathered here today, not to mourn but
To celebrate the life of
Taylor "Flowz" Rough
May he rest with strength and loyalty