Flowz Dilione - Depressed Confessions Part Two lyrics

Yeah it's been five years since part one
To be honest brah most days
I still feel the same it is what it is man
Flowz Dilione depressed Confessions Part Two
Yo

Every day repeats and I just cannot get away
In every way I'm weak I wanna
Leave and just forget this pain
Memories engraved have left me mentally
Insane and every day
I wake up praying that my family will change
It's hard to accept this fate
I know I'm not meant for this
Life and ever since the
Day of my birth I have been ready to die
I've severed all ties with anyone I've
Ever loved and look inside my
Eyes it's not hard to tell
That my head is fucked
Destined for drugs I'm not supposed
To prevail so fuck even
Trying to change when I just
Know that I'll fail
I'm hopeless and frail, unstable
Ready to snap
Understand that once I turn that
I can never come back
Just like my dad I see myself
Every time that I look at
Him it fuckin makes me
Sad I wanna cry because he looks so sick
But, I hold it in that's why I'm
Such an angry kid and if
You've never seen me lose it you
Don't know what anger is
I let aggression out by putting
Blades against my wrist
I'll cave in the fuckin heads of
People I'm not friendly with
Upon my enemies it's death I wish
Sounds harsh but reality is so don't judge
Me for why my head's like this
The devil is in the same
Place where my mental is
Burning in the flames of
Hell cursed for eternity
I believe I don't deserve to breathe
I wish I could take the
Life I have and give it to
The one who nurtured me
She raised five kids under one roof
Mum if you can hear this just
Know there's no other like you
I know what you've been through
And everything you have seen
You're so strong even though you
Are sick with disease and
Living with me is what has made you peace
Forgiveness ain't free and for you
I'm fuckin willing to bleed
If that's the price to pay I'll die today
Willingly leave so you can fly away to
Brighter days and live on your feet
This is real talk and it's hard to
Speak what is real but I
Have to let it out cause it's
Too hard to keep it concealed
So to my older brothers
Jesse and Luke I know I act like I hate
You both but I just pretend that I do
And my message to you is that
Acceptance is hard and watchin
Your lights fade inside has left
Me empty and dark
I'm bent from my past and I'll
Know I'll never be straight
A crooked mind I'm on my own
No one will ever relate
Until I'm sent to my grave I'll
Fight this war by myself and
I don't want any sympathy I'm
Not here crying for help
My mind is a cell I'm
Trapped and sentenced to life
Stuck in a mental prison
Where negative energy thrives
I'm on the edge of a knife
And I'm ready to fall
You see I'll never fly or
Ever see the heavenly doors
Preparin for war every day's a fight for
Me inside of me I'm battling depression
Bipolar and anxiety
In search for sobriety I have become lost
That's the price to pay for addiction
It comes at a cost
I'm fucked from the bongs
Crack pipes have left me a wreck and pickin
Up the pipe is something I'll forever regret
I don't have any energy left
I'm sick of livin of Centrelink and paying
Off my tick with my rent assist
I'm on the list for mental
Benefit's so I don't have
To look for work or ever pay for any medicine
Our time on earth is never definite
I'm ready I could leave
In any sec end it all
And just forget this shit
My death would be so effortless
I'd just take drugs, pop
A hundred xannies fall asleep
And never wake up, my eyes forever stay shut
This is real life what I'm
Saying isn't made up, i don't say lies
But, I'm surrounded by people who
Do and it's only
When the smokes clears you see who is true
But fuck mates all I need is
A bueg and a halfa
And I'll be fine I'll live
My life happily ever after
So if you think you know me
You better think again, cause
I can never be the person that you think I am
Cause, I can never be the person
That you think I am
So if you think you know me
You better think again, cause
I can never be the person that you think I am

Flowz Dilione strong and Loyal
Family Over Fame and that's it man
No more i'm done