Flowz Dilione, Peeps - Mental Prison lyrics

Yeah, yeah

I'm trapped inside a mental prison
Sentenced to life with no release
At night I sleep next to a
Knife and hope for peace
My mind won't let me dream so
I'm cursed by these nightmares
Visions of my younger brother's blood
All over my hands
I'm sick of waking up covered in sweat
Because I'm paranoid that my mates
Are fucking my ex
See I'm fucked in the head from
All the drugs I ingest
I have a heart made from stone
There's no love in my chest
There's so much i regret I've
Made so many mistakes
And yes I do believe in
Karma so I'm very afraid
I'm not mentally sane
Definitely missing components
And i'm missing composure when
I handle the blade
I can't handle the pain that
I feel when I'm sober
And the ending feels closer as
I stand on my grave
As a man I'm ashamed that's
Why I hide my emotions
The only time I expose them is
When I sever my veins

Will I ever escape from these
Chains that I'm trapped in?
Or is my fate destined just
To fade into blankess?
My brain is stained with the madness
And every time i look into a mirror
I see the face of a madman

Addiction has me in a tight grip
Just like my hands around my throat
My mind's sick from all
The methamphetamines I smoke
Now my memory's a ghost lost
Forever in a brainstorm
Where the dark weather stays and
Forever the rain pours
I can't escape war the fighting never ends
So of course I'm gonna go and
Fucking hit the pipe again
My life is bent I don't think
That I've ever been straight
And time spent now is with
Drugs and never with mates
I have a cancerous fate there's
No cure for this sickness
I'm past the point of no
Return I'm permanently twisted
I'm murderous when drinking fueled by revenge
So that slut can only hope that
I never see her again
I'll be leaving her dead
She won't be talking shit when
I'm fucking eating her flesh
And the knife is deep in her neck
I now dream of my death stuck
Alone inside this mental prison
Where my screams for heap fall on
Deaf ears as gentle whispers

Depression is something you can't win
You can just suppress the symptoms
I ain't letting them in and they ask
If I'm ok but I ain't listening
I am different I am fucked in the brain
Something has changed something is missing
Cut to the rain jumping in front of a train
Death my ugly mistress
Fuck that bitch I don't want
To know the whore
She's the overlord to my sober thoughts
So I smoke this draw till my throat is sore
I've got no conscience stored
No control no more fuck them doctors they're
Nothing but impostors
Chuck you on them tabs leave
You feeling lost kid
You don't know what the fuck
That I've been through
You can keep the tissues give me a pistol
I ain't scared of you i'm scared of myself
Scared of what I'll do to everyone else
Did I go overboard? did I go crazy on drugs?
No it's just the prescriptions the
Doctor gave me bruv