Flowz Dilione, Peeps - The Beginning of the End lyrics

Times have changed, I'm not the same anymore
Years of drug abuse
Has me lost chasing my thoughts
I wanna' blow my fuckin' brains on the wall
I'm so tired, maybe i will sleep when i
Finally lay in the morgue
Every day is just the same as before
I smoke a lot of weed
So every night i find myself chasing a quart
Drink a bottle til' my heads numb
Unable to walk
Choking on my own vomit as I lay on the floor
These days mates are ignored
Anxiety has ruined me
I'm paranoid my crew will jump ship, mutiny
So I chill by myself and
Never answer my phone because truth be told
I'd rather smoke a sesh on my own
But i never used to be like this
Until i grew up and I
Realised what real life is
Times are hard and the nights are dark
The weather is cold the knife is sharp
I use to slice my arms whenever I fold
Under the pressure of the weight that i carry
The day my dad stops drinking is
The day I'll be happy
When I'm able to manage without drugs
And start taking advantage
But that's a longshot
And i'm not aiming it steady

It's the beginning of the end
I hope it won't last long
Here for my brothers
Together we stand strong its the end

It's the beginning of the end
I hope it won't last long
Here for my brothers
Together we stand strong its the end

Damn, I went and fucked up myself again
Mental health is holdin my friends
There's no helping them
And i wish i could do more, but i can't
It's hard to lend a hand to the fam
If they don't ask
The happiness has my brother it won't last
Its burnt away in a twirl
Gone in that blown glass
Prescripts have ran out
So they self medicated
But anxiety got a hold on them
So they can't get the papers
Is it their fault? no it's not
I think it's vile that a doctor would
Hand you that poison with a smile
They say it'll help but i left you a track
It'll have your mother lookin' down on you
Dressed in all black
It's got you stressed to the max
It's got ya blamin ya friends
Looking around, we're all zombies
It's like the day of the dead

The rest i don't know