Grieves - Half Empty lyrics

I swear to god that sometimes
I feel my life is going blind
From the women I wake up to
To the substance in my rhymes
And I've abused the truth by
Telling myself everythings fine
With all that negativity I'm ignoring
Steadily climbing and undescribed
But hell I know that im not perfect
God knows I can't keep a girlfriend
Cause all of my problems surface
They feel I don't deserve 'em
Cause their friends say that im worthless
Unappropriately portrayed in my words
And put about my music
Haven't been making it lately the way
That I view haven't been positive
Missing the fact that it's
Human to get confused
I bleed and bruise like all the rest of you
But verbalize my blood inhale the punches
Love has thrown at me
And breathe it out my lungs like
And this all has been a mess
I replaced the things I love and ripped
My heart out of my chest like
And im not so concerned with why
I'm just here to count the minutes
Till tomorrows sun can rise listen

How many times do you have to
Wake up to stop dreaming
And I wrap my love notes in
Dust but never read 'em
Many times I just try to give
Up to stop leaving you
I have my heart broke and busted
Most of it's been crushed but
I blame it on myself

Cause in the morning I don't
See the right reflection
That foggy mirror after my shower
I see rejection
And I'm not saying I'm depressed
Seems to be a common theme today
These children try to hate themselves
But don't know why they feel that way
I got a real path paved and it's been crazy
In a month I almost had the
Clap and possibly a baby
Relocated places credit companies chasing me
And new age taking on in
It's efficient pile of changes
And I hate it cause
It's all so uncontrollable
Losing myself inside this broken emotion
Of no one knows
What's the point of ever falling in love
I find it's more about the pain
Than it ever was about trust
Find it's more about breaking chains and
Being confound there that it rusts
Found that love is just a test to
Most of us who've given up
But, if you think of it logistically
Then love is open eye
Cause it's everywhere you look
And it's in every scar you hide

How many times do you have to
Wake up to stop dreaming
And I wrap my love notes in
Dust but never read 'em
Many times I just try to give
Up to stop leaving you
I have my heart broke and busted
Most of it's been crushed but
I blame it on myself