Grieves - Pressure Cracks lyrics

I feel like I've been breathing
Out of an exhaust pipe on the job site
With a fist full of brittle sand
Should've seen it coming
A mile away from that little hill in
Which I'm making a stand on
It makes a man of me
(doesn't it?) and if it never kills
Me then I get a pass
Wish I coulda opened up the
Air around me just
A little bit so I could take a gasp
Who the hell is watchin?
Put a notch in my belt, keep it on the track
'Shoulda Woulda-Coulda' never made
A difference
When you're playing chicken with
Your only chance
But it made a man of me right? Mad man
I gotta dance around and play in sounds
Wish I knew back then what I know now
Ya look at me now

Dodging forever
Spending a fortune to figure it out
I don't believe it, never learned how
All of this pressure is driving me wild
Look at me now look at me now

I'm starting to feel like it's
Stackin on my shoulders
Another soldier with little patience
To see the dawn
Fought a lot of odds in the name of "Cause, "
Put 'em in a box buried in the lawn
But, I learned a lesson from it (didn't I?)
And if I didn't who the
Hell is gonna teach me?
I've been looking for answers and none of em
Ever offer the lesson that'll reach me
Who can see me?
-Losing personal relationships
Like people do their house keys
I've been outside, looking inside
With a shadow casted all around me
And they doubt me
Try to throw a little part of
Me away with every frown
Just wish they saw what I know now
Yeah, look at me now

Dodging forever
Spending a fortune to figure it out
I don't believe it, never learned how
All of this pressure is driving me wild
Look at me now look at me now