PhemieC - Forgotten Portrait lyrics

I’ve been here before, but never with company
There’s beauty in the madness
Of someone else’s longing
To be seen, to not slip through the cracks
To fall into the black and be alone forever
Known by nobody

I had a dark dream and awoke to
Turn to tell it to a ghost
I put all my ghosts into my words
And then erase them ‘till their smoke
Floats across my page, falls into my paints
And lines my pockets of my coat
To haunt my lonely days

And maybe we’ll both die
Maybe I will die for you
A little stranger in her Sunday best
But what else could I do?
To be anything but lonely’s worth
A shot at being only
A forgotten portrait hung inside
A gallery to view

Rooms built of emotion
As awkward as a sonnet writ of stone
Ar even the comfort of someone like
Me who stumbles on their own
Lack of common sense, a backwards, wrong-end
Mess dressed in Shabby clothes
And who but you would be impressed?

What maniacal artist, cursed the canvas
Dipped his brush in fate
And painted my face beside thinking
I could guide you?
Obligation thoroughly dictates I stay sane
In the face of rage
And so for your sake I’ll be brave
Thank God you saved me

And maybe there’s an exit
And it’s light is up ahead
And maybe art for art’s sake
Only isn’t all that bad
To be anything but useless
If there’s just a chance I’ll choose it
Even if it means, consequentially
I’m doomed a muse instead
Or confined as a forgotten portrait
Hanging in your head