Plan B - Everyday lyrics

Every morning when I wake
Every morning when I wake
This is my life everyday
This is my life everyday

Wake up in the morning
Notice something ain't right
'Cus although the sun is shining
There is no light
I open up my curtains, wipe
The sleep from my eyes
Too tired to realise I've lost my sight
Blinded by my ignorance, I prepare
My self for the day
Thinking this sinking feeling will go away
As I set off on my track, the little
Voice in my head says "turn back
" but when I want to turn back it's too late
Darkness surrounds, me drowning me in sorrow
'cus I know today will be
No different from tomorrow
Hope is quickly fading, soon I'll be
Too far gone for saving
My soul will go and leave my body hollow
And still in the face of adversity
I search for an inner strength
Try and stand firm with both fists clenched
But, I can't find my heart
It's like the fucking
Thing's deserted me, it used to be there
This makes no sense
So I pray to a God that I'm
Not even sure if I believe in
To help me in my hour of
Needing and keep me breathing
I pray to this God that
Created a place called Eden
A paradise to put Adam and Eve in
But, I don't think he hears me speaking
I'm starting to weaken
Now I'm reaching for what's fake
Poison in my body to escape
Suddenly I'm overwhelmed with optimism
My shoulders no longer feel the weight
Yeah, life feels great, but it's fake

It's fake 'cus I know the smile on my face
Is only there 'cus I'm
Too intoxicated to care
Inside my soul I can't find no hope
Just a gaping hole where it used to be there
An unmendable tear
That when I'm sober hurts more
Than I can bare it just ain't fair
And soon I'll be back in normality
When the poison wears off and my whole
Bodies aching from the pain of reality
The pain of reality, starts to grab at me
Love is a fallacy and I'm
Staring straight at death
As it tries take another stab at me
I'm down on my knees and I'm begging
"Someone hear me, please
Answer my questions?
"Why is my life just one big deep depression?
"Is this God's way of teaching me a lesson?"
Forgive me Father for I have sinned
This is my confession
I do bad things and I don't know why I do 'em
I try to do good deeds but
People see right through 'em
I can't ge't close to no one
'cus they won't let me
How can I feel like a man
If they don't respect me?
Is that my heart I feel starting to sink?
As the more I talk, I'm starting to think
That maybe I feel this way because
Of the mistakes I've made
And it ain't got shit to do with no one else
I can only blame myself
It's me who's bad for my health
And only I can rectify what is wrong in my
Life if only I tried a little bit harder
It all comes down to a choice
What would I rather stay how I am
And watch the days get darker or forgive
Myself? Get on with my life and not
Look back after