J-Dawg, Propain - My Life, Pt. II lyrics

Be careful what you ask for

If you looked in my life
You could see what I see

Blessings, what the hell is that we stressin’
Ain’t no food around this bitch
My daddy took an exit
Momma double-shiftin still feel like
We got nothin’
I can’t sleep cause the roof leak
And water drip inside this fuckin’ bucket
Either starvin’ or you thuggin’
Or sellin’ dope we was 13
Boy dropped outta school and started hustlin’
My dawg schooled me to these stealin’
Cars I ain’t wanna touch it
But the way them hoes kept laughin’ at
My shoes I was like fuck it
So now we on some shit
We tip-toein’ when we roll up
Backin’ niggas cars out driveways
Like a tow truck
Hit the nawf side cause the chop
Shop gon’ give us more bucks
And them same hoes that was laughin’
At my shoes now they gon’ fuck
Blindfolded in the fast lane
We can’t slow up we on the news now
Auto-theft division startin’ to know us
The walls was closin’ in
Them clear skies turn to grey
See that’s the part about the streets
That they don’t warn you when you play
Them hatin’ niggas killed my dawg
A bitch set em up
Ain’t leave the house for 3 days
My pillow case was wet as fuck
When you young
You can’t fathom that they never comin’ back
Your baby boy gone
How the fuck I tell his momma that
My soul numb
They gave my bro a dub and closed the case
When that devil go to work
Nigga it's hard to hold your faith
Ghetto dealers bad ends
But this the cards we chose to play
We ain’t worried about tomorrow
Hope they don’t take our soul today nigga
This my life

If you looked in my life
You could see what I see

I’m screamin’ out to you lord
It’s your long-lost child
I know I strayed off
Been gone for a while now
Please don’t turn that deaf ear to me
You say "Ask and you will receive"
Father forgive me I’m lost
Hoe ass devil got me under his wing
Every time I try to come
He always intervenes
Strike a flame deep in my brain
Got me thinkin’ bout killin’
When at first, I was thinkin’ I’m changed
Like a nigga schizophrenic
One minute I’m cool
And then I’m actin’ a fool
Can’t understand it I’m manic shit
So close to goin’ insane
Lord please if you don’t ease this pain
At least stop the rain
Pourin’ down hail storm lately heart torn
Got me blinder than a new born baby
Smoke at least 2 or 3 packs of Newports daily
My body done lord if you don’t come this
Cancer gonna take me away
Sound weak? Well nigga you come fade it
I done lost so many partners now
How I ain’t crazy
But I ain’t normal neither
Normal than a non believer mind wicked
I done witnessed some of the
Sickest evils done to people
Shit I committed sins I
Can’t believe forgiven either
And I believe in Jesus
But I’m still scared of sleepin’
Dreamin’ bout these same bitch
Ass demons every night
Tryna kill me I really feel it
I be fightin’ for my life
And right before I, die
Can’t wanna see this shit