REVERIE - 0300 Hours lyrics

Woke up & heard the news, it was 3 o' clock
Couldn't function, couldn't breathe
My heart stopped
Today I held you, today I kissed you
Told you I loved you, now I'm screaming out
"I MISS YOU!"
I can't believe what I'm hearing from
His mama on the phone
Suddenly it's all gone man, I'm all alone
I don't think I've woken up
This must be a dream
Cuz there's a kid inside of me
& he's gon need a team
& now it's only me my baby ain't near me
She's screaming on the phone like, "Jordan
Can you hear me!?"
I hang it up i'm having trouble breathing
I'm socking all my walls till
My fist starts bleeding & now I'm screaming
I'm steady thinking bout the facts
There's nothing I can do
There's no way he's coming back
This ain't no break up to
Make up, no ransom, bail, or price tag
All I got left is my baby in a black bag
My phone keeps ringing why the
Fuck they keep calling!?
I can't fucken stand and
These tears keep falling
I'm looking at the ceiling how'd
I get on the floor?
I must have passed out now it's about 4
I don't bother getting up cuz there
Ain't nothing else to live for
Crawl over to the cabinet i'm
Downing all the liquor
Not thinking about nothing i just want my boo
Fuck the world, fuck my baby, motha fuck you!
I pick it up again, it's Roger on the line
He says he's coming over cuz
He knows I'm fucken dying
He says I sounds drunk &
He's really fucken worried
I'm seeing blurry he says he's
Coming in a hurry
He barges in, I'm on the floor
Wasted & shaking
He shakes me, looking at me, says
"What have you taken?"
He sees the bottles on the floor &
He hit's me in the lip
Says, "What the fuck you doing?
You're having a fucken kid!"
The phone rings again he picks it
Up & then he grabs me
Carries me to the car i wanna die so badly
Takes me to a house
Everybody's there gathered
I got my head down, shit, nobody even matters
I swear to fucken God
Time stopped that night
& I swore to fucken God when I saw that sight
That 1 day he would be sorry even
Though I knew he wouldn't be
Why did you take my baby? He's
So motha fucken good to me
They say you never really know what
You got until it's gone
I knew & loved what I had
But shit still went wrong
We motha fucken loved each other you
Could say we were obsessed
Now he's gone & I don't know what
To do i'm such a mess i'm so depressed
Fucken stressed & every night before I sleep
I say a little prayer for my baby
Rest in peace

Man, you're always on my mind &
You're always in my face
I see you everywhere I go
Every motha fucken place
I gotta tell myself to stop
Because I get myself hoping
It's you standing there man
I'm having trouble coping-
I went back to the coke thing
I cry until I'm choking
Only time I feel at peace is
When I'm by myself smoking
I drink myself to sleep this shit
Is fucking with my mind
I'm doing therapy & pills i
Think I just need time
I wish that I was blind
Wish I was def & emotionless
The 1 person I love! I can't believe
I have to go through this!
I wish that I could kiss you
& fuck you til we can't
Wish we could have a conversation wish
That I could hold your hand
But all I got left is poems & love letters
Some pictures & some videos saying
You "finally met her"
The love of your life brown eyes, 5'3''
Man, a cutie with a booty
You were talking bout me
I lost our precious little baby doctor
Said it was the stress
Didn't even wanna have it, man
I gotta confess
Cuz when you died I turned cold
& it broke my fucken spirit
I'm writing you this song saying I love you
Hope you hear it

They say you never really know what
You got until it's gone
I knew & loved what I had
& shit still went wrong
We complimented each other
They always said that we were perfect
Now he's gone
I'm feeling like I'm motha fucken worthless
I lost my purpose & every
Night before I sleep
I cry & say a little prayer, boy, I love you
Rest in peace