Sunshine Christo - Apologies lyrics

I don't understand
You said you'd never leave
You told me that you'd be there
But you lied again to me
You're always on my mind
And when it's late at night
I think of what you're doing
Do you think of me sometimes

And when I'm feeling down
I lose all control emotions keep coming and
I'm tryna to let you go
So if you wanna talk to me again
Don't try to act like we were always friends

She acting like I ain't
Remember what she said
I remember all the things you said
The letters that you sent
I knew what you mеant
We aren't just friends that smilе you have
Means your up to no good
Trying to be different always misunderstood
You don't know what to do since I left you
Some nights I wanna text you
But I got too much pride to admit I lied
To admit I did something wrong
I'd rather vent about in a song
Than see you face to face and talk
I shouldn't of cheated on you
But I can't take back the past
I know I broke your heart and
Knowing that makes me sad
I didn't wanna see you bad
I don't deserve your sympathy
But I'm not a simp you see
I can recognize when I messed up
Part of being a man is growing up
But I don't want to grow up
Without you by my side
Is it too selfish to ask for another ride
Is it too much to ask for another try
I know that I messed up i shouldn't of lied
I know that you really tried
I know that I made you cry
I'm selfish enough to crush up all your
Love and now I can't say goodbye

I don't understand
You said you'd never leave
You told me that you'd be there
But you lied again to me
You're always on my mind
And when it's late at night
I think of what you're doing
Do you think of me sometimes

And when I'm feeling down
I lose all control emotions keep coming and
I'm tryna to let you go
So if you wanna talk to me again
Don't try to act like we were always friends