Sunshine Christo - Episode 11: Sea lyrics

I'm afraid to go to sleep
Cause I think I might not wake up
Leave my bed like it's a grave
I feel like the Undertaker
Bitch I take a lot of pills
Bitch I pop a lot of seals
I'm drowning in a sea of my own misery
Don't try this on TV
You don't wanna be like me
I don't want you to end up like me
Just cause someone do it
Doesn't mean you should
If I listened to that advice
I'd be doing good
I'm stuck up in a maze, and I can't get out

I drown i drown
In a sea of misery i drown
I drown in an ocean made by me
Slowly and slowly I forget my memories
In so deep I hang out in Atlantis
Blade in my hands just like a praying mantis
Going through my mеmories
Just like Psychomantis
Struggling to remеmber
But I don't think I ever planned this
Seventeen years and I want off this planet

Don't wanna go to sleep cause
I might not wake up
Dumb lil bitch always wearing make up
Everything about her made up
I can't marry a faker
Eyes so red that they look like Takis
I keep taking more and more but
They want me to stop it
Playing cards by myself looking
Out the window
The wind flows fast but the time moves slow
I'm losing memories of people that I know
They wanna take me back but I don't wanna go
They wanna make me choose but
I don't even know
Posted on the beach with three days left
I'm looking at the cloudy skies
Wondering what's next
And that's when I realized
There's nothing left

(Yeah, Like when-when you get so real bitch?
Huh?)

There's nothing left for a dead man
There's nothing left for his
Friends or parents
Clear sky but nothing's really clear inside
You can lie all you want
But you can't lie inside
I just took three pills
I don't wanna be able to feel
Take as many as it takes till it goes away
Save the rest the bottle up for another day
Take prescriptions but they aren't even mine
Pouring cough syrup in the lemon-lime
Everyone says things get better with time
Then why is nothing getting better for mine?
Think I've spent too much time online
So numb I wouldn't even feel if I died
When I'm awake I still look asleep
And when I'm asleep you can't
Tell if I'm deceased

I'm afraid to go to sleep
Cause I think I might not wake up
Leave my bed like it's a grave
I feel like the Undertaker (Evil Empire
Laughing all the way to the bank)