Vin Jay - What If lyrics

Just imagine if I never heard of Rap (yeah)
Never heard of Pac, no Biggie
Or heard of Mac (Nah)
Never made a name or put my city on the map
(Map) and never made a record that
Was dissing mumble tracks, yeah
I bet that I would probably
Take the safe route (yeah)
Probably work a wack nine to five and
I'd blow my fuckin' brains out (Boom)
Never finding no ways out
I'd be posted up in this same town (Damn)
Never see these commas that been
Flowing through my PayPal
We're about to be crazy
From emotions I'm concealing (Woo)
Stay laid awake while I'm
Contemplating my life
Looking at the ceiling
And take some medication just to
Dull the way I'm feeling (Huh?)
Then post it up on that 'Gram to
Make my life look more appealing
Yeah, I keep my focus
Go to college and be straight
Then I live the rest of my life
With an occupation that I hate (yeah)
Maxing out like all of my credit
With some bills I cannot pay (Pay)
Then convince my fucking kids that they
Should go and do the same (Woo)
Dear Lord
My kids'll tell me what they wanna be (Be)
Then I tell them "Go to
College" even if they disagree (Gree)
Let the system beat them down while it
Just proceeds to kill their dreams (yeah)
And I watch
As they all become as miserable as me
Ya'll know ain't no doubt if
I never heard Rap, i'd be a mess
I'd be knee deep in that liquor and
I'd be drowning in my debt (Debt)
Work all day but I get no rest (Rest)
Just get by with a minimal check
Tell me what's the point in my life
When I'm only living with regret?
Damn, and I been wondering if I
Ever gave my best yet
Probably be the same until I'm
Posted on my death bed, huh
If I never heard of rap I know
That nothing would be the same (yeah)
But this is who I'm meant to be
This fucking shit is in my veins (Go)
I'm ready to kill it, not leaving a witness
I'm coming to level the game
Man I been living with no kind of limit's
I body you bitches, don't get in my way
(yeah)
Never be dealing with none of you lames
Ain't no comparing us, we not the same
Ya'll have been tripping
The void I been filling
Got better from music, I'm numbing the pain
Man I really wish I had this booth (Booth)
When I was a kid locked in my room (Room)
Fuckin' with a razor blade 'til I fade away
And I was hopin' that my day comes soon
Wanted to make it but know
I never got through
Said "I'd be the best", but I had no proof
But I've got 'em talking now
'cause I'm bossing out
And my dreams about to come true
Now we trippin' overseas
Devil in me, gotta pack the Rosaries
Left fam and they meant the most to me
Had to put 'em in the past
They don't believe
Real quick for the fam and
The ones who doubted come take a look at all
The guap I'm countin'
Living on top, it don't get too crowded
(Nah)
Know I'm alone but I feel surrounded, damn
Make a name with this filthy grind (Grind)
Ya'll can't break what I built this time
Could of died from all the shit I've done
But I beat the odds and I will survive
Still I do what I please (Woo)
Really 'bout to profit off of my dreams
(yeah)
But I gotta take the time to just pray to God
'Cause life had me down on my knees
Yeah, so ain't no question
I'm about to do it right (Right)
I be sacrificing everything and
Grinding through the night (Let's do this)
While I spill my fucking heart out when
I get up on this mic
'Cause I know one day they gon' hear
Me and I'ma change my fucking life