Vinnie Paz, Yes Alexander - Is Happiness Just A Word? lyrics

Run run
(Go ahead and) run

Darkness comes beneath the dying stars
With all the blood and scars
My mouth will hunt you with fear - I appear
Nothing will stop me
You crave the creature in me
Shattered, I will capture you so run

My family don't understand what I go through
Under diagnosed for 20 years
Ain't never broke through
You ever been in such a
Fog you don't know you?
Never being able to do the
Shit you're supposed to?
I wouldn't wish it on anyone
That I'm close to
Wouldn't wish it on anybody
That I'm opposed to
There's not an accurate diagnosis to show you
Basic neurobiology isn't close to it
I'm watching life as a spectator
I can't help myself
Even though I possessed data
It's not a part of my spirit
To want to test nature
You think you know what I'm feeling, cousin
Then let's wager
I'm having trouble retaining new information
Familiar scenes starting to
Look foreign- derealization
Everybody tired of being patient
Mama wondering why her baby
Crying in the basement
Constant rumination just exacerbates it
To the point where I can't
Even barely narrate it
I've had doctors tell me that
My mind is fascinating
But they can't tell me why
The sickness has been activated

Darkness comes beneath the dying stars
With all the blood and scars
My mouth will hunt you with fear - I appear
Nothing will stop me
You crave the creature in me
Shattered, I will capture you so run

My head don't work, the meds don't work
But, I don't want to be dead, dead don't work
Sleep's the cousin of death
The bed don't work
Maybe I'd rather be dead dead don't hurt
Realization of an inherent emptiness
Maybe that's another sin for the pessimist
Possibly I am a jinn with a exorcist
I've fallen because I've been
On the precipice
Maybe it's my mama's possible regret
Maybe it's a neurological neglect
Maybe it's the reason why water's wet
The angular gyrus and where
The frontal lobe connect
But maybe I'm being too complicated for you
Maybe I should just be calm
And explain it to you
The psychiatrist thinking they could fool you
Paxil, Zoloft, it's just wasteful to you
I've tried meditation
Tried to sit in silence
But how the fuck that
Help a neurochemical imbalance?
Why would you tell a person
That they were childish
Without an understanding of the pain
That they surround in?
I always feel foggy somatic detatchment
It's like my body isn't connected to actions
It destroys everything that's
Affected the fragments
I don't have nothing but senses and sadness

Darkness comes beneath the stars
With all the blood and all the scars
Nothing will stop me
You crave the creature inside

Darkness comes beneath the dying stars
With all the blood and scars
My mouth will hunt you with fear - I appear
Nothing will stop me
You crave the creature in me
Shattered, I will capture you so run

Run run
Run