Midwxst - Smile (feat. glaive) lyrics

I've been on the edge for a while
It’s getting hard to breathe
It's getting hard to smile
I don't who I should call or I should dial
I know I need some
Help,  but that’s just as fine,  oh
All the shit that goes on inside my head
All the tears that have fallen have been shed
All the times that I've been
Cut like some thread i can't describe
But I've been running out of my meds

You say you need me
But push me off to the side
I can't tell if you're telling the
Truth or telling your lies
I never knew how I should open up
I keep it inside
Ain't nobody that'll help me
Wanna hear my cries
And you said that you got me
But I already know that you don’t
I don’t need your fuckin' help so
Leave me the fuck alone
I don’t got a lot of friends
I'm used to being alone
I don't like to go outside
I'm always stayin’ at home

And why you always gotta
Talk, talk, talk, talk, talk?
All I hear is fuckin'
Blah, blah, blah, blah, blah
I don't like you, now you're
Blocked, blocked, blocked, blocked, blocked
You're my friend, oh no, you're
Not, not, not, not, not

I kinda wanna go out
But I know what might go wrong
I been staring at my feelings
Through the barrel of this gun
And I talk about my feelings
No they always getting shunned
And I'm losing track of time
Always feeling so alone

Lately been scared, not leaving the house
And I'm feeling really jealous of
The people they around
So I close my eyes and I shut my mouth
It's the funniest shit when it all goes
That sucks, shit-faced
I tried to be kind, that's a mistake
And they act like we're friends
But it's all fake
I'ma air out the laundry for display
Tell me, do you know my hurt?
You never will until you see
Your brother on a shirt but it's okay
'cause I might blow my brains
Fun-funny thing, before I'm seventeen
And I know that you don't notice when I try
I got way too much on my mind
And now I'm asking myself
Am I even surprised?
And before I go, please tell me, why?

You say you need me
But push me on to the side
I can't tell if you're telling the
Truth or telling your lies
I never knew how I should open up
I keep it inside
Ain't nobody that'll help me
Wanna hear my cries
And you said that you got me
But I already know that you don't
I don't need your fuckin' help so
Leave me the fuck alone
I don't got a lot of friends
I'm used to being alone
I don't like to go outside
I'm always stayin' at home

And why you always gotta
Talk, talk, talk, talk, talk?
All I hear is fuckin'
Blah, blah, blah, blah, blah
I don't like you, now you're
Blocked, blocked, blocked, blocked, blocked
You're my friend, oh no, you're
Not, not, not, not, not
And why you always gotta
Talk, talk, talk, talk, talk?
All I hear is fuckin'
Blah, blah, blah, blah, blah
I don't like you, now you're
Blocked, blocked, blocked, blocked, blocked
You're my friend, oh no, you're
Not, not, not, not, not