Adam Calhoun, Mesus - Dying lyrics

Oh I think I'm dying i will
Oh I think I'm dying
I wish I was all around
Oh I think I'm dying

I'm gonna keep it real
Whatcha know about takin' pills
Poppin' these xan-, panic attacks
Losin' my mind, feel like I'm dyin', ha
I can't believe what I'm sayin'
You thinkin' I'm playin'
I'm diggin' my grave right now
I'm crazy, you'd probably kill yourself
If you knew the shit that
I was thinkin' about, ha ha
How can I breathe, cuttin' my sleeve
I'm watchin' it bleed
Maybe that will take the pain away
No more rainy days you talkin' to me?
Just let me be, I need some sleep
Why you think I cut so deep?
You'll never see what's underneath
Please I need some peace

I'm gonna keep it real
I'm gonna speak how I feel
When I'm drivin' feel like
Swearvin' the wheel right and a left
You think that I'm playin'
I'm treatin' every song, I'm
Writtin' my will, yeah
This one right here's for everyone out
There that's like me battle depression
Been to hell and back and I can tell that
I go back and just can't learn my lesson
Coutin' my blessin's but suck at the math
So every blessin' I keep cuttin' in half
So all of my problems keep addin' up
While my solutions keep cuttin'
In half, yeah, yeah, yeah
Know that they hate me
They say that they love me
Don't call me crazy but I need the company
So fuck with me though, yeah

Oh I think I'm dying i will
Oh I think I'm dying
I wish I was all around
Oh I think I'm dying

I'm gonna keep it a mil
Last year I made a million
Still it ain't change how I feel
Still fuckin' with the same bottle of pills
Went from my brothers basement to
A house with no payments
And dealin' with fuckers that I wanna kill
I gotta chill, I don't know how
I wish you could feel
What I'm talkin' about
I'm all by myself, talkin' out loud
No one can help, I feel like I'm drowin'
Ha ha shit is so cold, I'm losin' control
I'm losin' my soul, but I
Know I never sold it, no
Devil must have stole it, yeah
And that motherfucker is gonna have
To deal with me
If I go to hell I'm takin' over

I'm gonna keep it a secret
I ain't gon' tell nobody
About these thoughts
That are creepin' into my mind
So you think that I'm fine
You think I'm cryin' wolf when
I say that I'm dyin', ah
I ain't gon' tell nobody that I'm scared
Of keepin' guns in the house
I ain't gon' tell nobody that I
Actually put guns in my mouth
Fuck you know about
Russian roulette with a loaded gun
Handle of vodka and still ain't drunk
I cannot tell nobody that I'm suicidal
No I just keep it bottled up
Bottle of pills are the razor play
Cross my heart hope to die, jump in
No I'm not fuckin' playin'
Thinkin' it's just a game 'til I
Blow out my fuckin' brains

Oh I think I'm dying i will
Oh I think I'm dying
I wish I was all around
Oh I think I'm dying