Adrienne Rich - Phantasia for Elvira Shatayev lyrics
[Adrienne Rich - Phantasia for Elvira Shatayev lyrics]
The cold felt cold until our blood
Grew colder then the wind
Died down and we slept
If in this sleep I speak
It's with a voice no longer personal
(I want to say with voices)
When the wind tore our breath from us at last
We had no need of words
For months for years each one of us
Had felt her own yes growing in her
Slowly forming as she stood at windows waited
For trains mended her rucksack
Combed her hair
What we were to learn was simply what he had
Up here as out of all words that yes gathered
It's forces fused it'self and
Only just in time
To meet a No of no degrees -
The black hole sucking the world in
I feel you climbing toward me
Your cleated bootsoles leaving
Their geometric bite
Colossally embossed on microscopic crystals
As when I trailed you in the Caucasus
Now I am further ahead then either of us
Dreamed anyone would be i have become
The white snow packed like
Asphalt by the wind the women I love lightly
Flung against the mountain that blue sky
Our frozen eyes unribboned through the storm
We could have stitched that blueness
Together like a quilt
You come
(I know this) with your love your loss
Strapped to your body with
Your tape-recorder camera
Ice-pick against advisement
To give us burial in the
Snow and in your mind
While my body lies out here
Flashing like a prism into your eyes
How could you sleep You
Climbed here for yourself
We climbed for ourselves
When you have buried us told your story
Ours does not end we stream
Into the unfinished the unbegun the possible
Every cell's core of heat pulsed out of us
Into the thin air of the universe
The armature of rock beneath these snows
This mountain which has taken the
Imprint of our minds
Through changes elemental and minute
As those we underwent
To bring each other here
Choosing ourselves each other and this life
Whose every breath and grasp
And further foothold
Is somewhere still enacted and continuing
In the diary I wrote: Now we are ready
And each of us knows it I have
Never loved like this I have
Never seen my own forces so taken
Up and shared and given back
After the long training the early sieges
We are moving almost effortlessly in our love
In the diary as the wind began to tear
At the tents over us I wrote:
We know now we have always been in danger
Down in our separateness
And now up here together but till now
We had not touched our strength
In the diary torn from my
Fingers I had written: What does love mean
What does it mean "to survive"
A cable of blue fire ropes our bodies
Burning together in the snow We
Will not live to settle
For less We have dreamed of
This all our lives
Grew colder then the wind
Died down and we slept
If in this sleep I speak
It's with a voice no longer personal
(I want to say with voices)
When the wind tore our breath from us at last
We had no need of words
For months for years each one of us
Had felt her own yes growing in her
Slowly forming as she stood at windows waited
For trains mended her rucksack
Combed her hair
What we were to learn was simply what he had
Up here as out of all words that yes gathered
It's forces fused it'self and
Only just in time
To meet a No of no degrees -
The black hole sucking the world in
I feel you climbing toward me
Your cleated bootsoles leaving
Their geometric bite
Colossally embossed on microscopic crystals
As when I trailed you in the Caucasus
Now I am further ahead then either of us
Dreamed anyone would be i have become
The white snow packed like
Asphalt by the wind the women I love lightly
Flung against the mountain that blue sky
Our frozen eyes unribboned through the storm
We could have stitched that blueness
Together like a quilt
You come
(I know this) with your love your loss
Strapped to your body with
Your tape-recorder camera
Ice-pick against advisement
To give us burial in the
Snow and in your mind
While my body lies out here
Flashing like a prism into your eyes
How could you sleep You
Climbed here for yourself
We climbed for ourselves
When you have buried us told your story
Ours does not end we stream
Into the unfinished the unbegun the possible
Every cell's core of heat pulsed out of us
Into the thin air of the universe
The armature of rock beneath these snows
This mountain which has taken the
Imprint of our minds
Through changes elemental and minute
As those we underwent
To bring each other here
Choosing ourselves each other and this life
Whose every breath and grasp
And further foothold
Is somewhere still enacted and continuing
In the diary I wrote: Now we are ready
And each of us knows it I have
Never loved like this I have
Never seen my own forces so taken
Up and shared and given back
After the long training the early sieges
We are moving almost effortlessly in our love
In the diary as the wind began to tear
At the tents over us I wrote:
We know now we have always been in danger
Down in our separateness
And now up here together but till now
We had not touched our strength
In the diary torn from my
Fingers I had written: What does love mean
What does it mean "to survive"
A cable of blue fire ropes our bodies
Burning together in the snow We
Will not live to settle
For less We have dreamed of
This all our lives