Belly - Lullaby lyrics

Every time I die a little more inside
When you told me to speak on
It, I'ma speak on it, fuck it
Mumble rap, man mumble rap right?
That’s what we doin’? Yeah, Alright

Wonder if God heard me pray when
I was trying to repent if he didn't
I know he heard my mother cry over rent
Then you wonder why the mood inside
This room is so tense no offense
But I don't really got nowhere to go vent
Oh yeah, success is like a drug
And I been high on the scent
Feel like I wasted all the money
And the time that I spent
Maybe the tears inside my eyes
Had me blind with revenge
I told her even if we crash
I'ma ride 'till the end
There I go lying again
Don’t know why I pretend
Hold up, let me try this again
Lord, you know I never open up
Abusing drugs
Never thinking I was dope enough
She's over me when I'm the one
That she's supposed to love
At least my heart broke enough
For the both of us
They told me play your part (play your part)
Boy we different, you smart
Let her lay in your bed don't ever
Let a bitch in your heart
Still around the same ones that I
Was with from the start
Though the distance got us drifting apart
Felt betrayed
Swear to God 'till this day man
This shit hit my heart
Wanted to shine so bad that I
Got left in the dark still love you
Can’t help but see that kid in the park
Runnin' 'round the town looking for
Some shit we can start
Any issues I was right there with it (I was)
I bought my dream house
But I been having nightmares in it
The game ugly
Just tell me why you can't love me (why?)
Or why the fuck you're ashamed of me
You can't judge me that's why I stay numb
And the smartest thing I ever
Did was play dumb (Uh)
Staying up nights 'till my day comes
Old memories had me wishin’
That we stayed young
I'm a mess thinkin' less so I'm saying more
I talk to God about you so I'm praying more
That's why I smoke a hundred blunts straight
Pops left, moms cried for a month straight
Used to cry too but I would never show her
Superwoman feel blessed if you ever know her
Look at all this shit that we made it through
They bugged the house and they raid it too
If that ain't ironic I'm a crazy fool
Play it cool, baby, play it cool
They don't acknowledge my accomplishments
My opp was just a optimist i'm copping shit
But still I'm not convinced
That this is opulence
I can probably fuck Pocahontas
Right out her moccasins
Killing everything that I'm authoring
Like the offering
Ten stitches with my limbs twitching
You ever went through withdrawals
'till ya skin itches? Huh
Screaming "Fuck what you think"
Tears falling while I write it down
Smudging the ink
Please pour out a couple of drinks
Sometimes I wish that I was
Up there with Chinx
You wouldn't even care if I ever died
So I wrote this for the
Tears that you'll never cry lullaby