Caskey - DIXIE lyrics

You know that I am sorry momma
I never meant to hurt you
I never meant to make you cry
I only wanna see you smile
You know that I am sorry momma
I never meant to hurt you
I never meant to make you cry
I only wanna see you smile

Yeah!

Growing up wasn’t the kid
They believed would prosper
Back when dad was gettin scrips
From a crooked doctor
Back when I was reading scrips
From the book of vodka i used to keep half a
Zip in my student locker
Older sis was expelled went to school at XL
With all the other bad kids it
Made it hard to excel
I was 15 was Ben taught me how to inhale
Stopped praying then cuz I was
Used to living in hell
Burnt like sage but I wasn’t
On an Indian trail
Before we ever went to jail
Was getting plenty of bales
Back before your favorite rappers
Album lyrics were stale
I kept my clientele small outta
Fear they would tell
I use to run with the drug dealers
Felt like they was big brothers
After pops died I had to
Eat so I skipped supper
Bumper car love between us
There’s a big buffer
Running from ur own pain just
Made your kid suffer
Leaving my crib went on a comma chase
Never justified the tears put
On my momma face
I swear she cried for a year straight
Trying to hold the family together but
My hands were like clear tape easy to break
Straight face cuz a smile wasn’t easy to fake
And mistakes were a dime a dozen easy to make
But this pill bottle felt like concrete
It wasn’t easy to shake

Sorry, momma i never meant to hurt you
I never meant to make you cry
I only wanna see you smile sorry, momma
I never meant to hurt you
I never meant to make you cry
I only wanna see you smile

I saw the look of fear was overtaking my moms
When I got signed to Birdman
The studio full of dons
And drugs piled next to
The interface intercom
Second guessing what type of
Person I would become
She had a skepticism that wasn’t easily won
From growing up ina trailer and
Getting beat like a drum
Alcoholic parents abusing her like it’s fun
They died never even acknowledging
What they’d done and then she met my pops
Her fate was already spun
He moved her up out the trailer
And that was where they begun
Changed her life gave her a
Daughter then had a son
Vowed to keep her safe cuz she
Had no where she could run
And then one day after the smoke
Had filled up his lungs
He lost half his hands at work in an accident
Got introduced to the OxyContin to Numb
Then started getting high with my
Sister my mom was done
Realizing that he had lost it
All he was stunned
The heaviness of his sins was
Weighing on him a ton 4
20 I left to school to roll me a blunt
He went upstairs said his goodbye
With a smoking gun see me and drugs got such
A painful way we entangled
We try to dance around with the
Devil and twist our ankles
I try to take a look at
My life from different angles
But seems like everybody I love
Leave me for Angeles
For making music and having fans
I’m more than thankful
I toured around the country got
Reasons I should be grateful
But every time I did drugs
With em I felt shameful
Knowing it’s the reason my momma suffer
Losing everybody that she love
To downward and uppers
Never strong enough to kick it for
Her I gotta be tougher
Vowed to never take u thru the rain
Or ever end up the same
Before I die u gonna be proud of me mother

I love you