Convolk - ​Dreams (intro) lyrics

Walkin' in the cold i couldn't feel anything
All I could think of was
My mother's old wedding ring
And couldn't figure out what about
It touched me mentally
Maybe it's thinkin' 'bout my past and
What it's all meant to me
I realize that livin' isn't meant for me
Not to complain, but, death isn't my enemy
I have a lot of those
A lot of people hate me
But they don't realize it's them
Who mothafuckin' made me
Tell me I fuckin' suck
Tell me I'm fuckin' weird
It's nothin' new to me
You say it and I barely hear it
I wanna make you happy
I wanna make you laugh
I wanna come in first place
I always come in last
This is the way I fall
This is the way I crash
I won't pick up your calls
You make me feel like trash
I'm takin' pills in public
Call it a call for help
I'm a puppy dog, chained up
And my master's left
I was your favorite son
I was your number one
You fill me up with love
And now you're fuckin' gone
And now it's me and dad
He never understands me
When you died, he told me "don't cry
It's only family" well, he didn't say that
But that's what it felt like
I'm not tryna be edgy
I'm not lookin' for sad eyes
It's funny, that I'm not funny
I'm quite ugly, I'm quite stupid
Funny that it's so funny and quite
Cute and not like you, bitch
Still strange, how much you cross my mind
Still painful when I think about your smile
All things said and done
Actually not depressed
I'm actually almost happy
Just got this off my chest
I bet you felt this way
Like you deserve a death
But, it'll find you anyway
Close your eyes and take a breath
My only solace now
Is to fill my fuckin' skull with lead
Don't forget that life is all
Inside your motherfuckin' head
Yeah, we're sleepin', man
It's a fuckin' dream, don't take it seriously
Let yourself feel inactive
Just don't give a shit about other people
Man everyone's gonna think I'm mad
Weird for this, whatever