Crm - All In My Head letra de (lyrics)

Uh, uh (COBRA)
I’m ‘bout to talk ‘bout some personal shit
So don’t just hate, just listen
And understand yeah, ahem!

Yeah, this some shit you’d
Never expect someone
That you know to deal with
But it’s so hard to describe it all
‘cause I can’t tell how I’m feelin’
They say the sky’s the limit, that’s true
’cause my pain breakin’ the ceiling
And now it’s gotten to the point
Where I’ve forgotten life’s meaning
I can’t figure out why you’re surprised
‘cause you hear this shit all the time
And I’ve hid this all for so long
So ya’ll still think that I’m doin’ fine
I can’t tell if this is real
Or if I’m outta my mind
‘Cause no matter how many times I’ve tried
I can’t leave all this shit behind
Fuck no! This gon’ leave more than an impact
No one else tells me they’re
Goin’ through the same shit
It’s makin’ me feel mismatched
I’m afraid of tellin’ this out loud
‘cause I don’t know how they gon’ react
I’m tellin’ you this ain’t an easy fix
So you can’t tell me ‘just relax’
And I can’t live my normal
Life, all the easiest shit
I somehow make it hard
Whether one of your friends gon’
Switch up on you
Or if a girl’s gon’ break your heart
Why do I gotta deal with this pain
I’m not ready to take it on
This way too much for me, compared
To this shit, I'm small, I ain't at large
And you probably think that this fake
But I can't remember a single person who
Asked me if I was ok
That's probably 'cause I never
Told nobody bout
The shit I deal with everyday
So I hope that you might help
Me out before it’s too late
You don’t know what it’s like
To go through this shit
You only know how it sounds
I don’t even feel safe at home
‘cause there’s arguments every day
In the house
And even if I told you everythin’
You’re just gonna kick me down
But you’ll only start caring for me when
I’m six feet deep in the ground

Dealt with this so many times
I can’t remember the first
Why does everythin’ in my life go wrong
I swear this more than a curse
What’s the point of livin’ anymore
Tell me what is my life worth
But I know everyone that hated on me will
Start lovin’ me if I left this Earth

See, now I’m not the same
I can’t go back to the life I used to live
And you blame me for all this
Shit? But you don’t understand
I ain’t no lunatic
I’m goin’ insane, never feelin’ the same
But I guess I’m used to it
But the worst part is I’ll never know
When I’m gonna start losin’ it
‘Cause they never taught me how
To ask someone for help
So I had to learn all on my own
They never taught me how to stop bullies
So I could never be left alone
They never told me people cared about me
So I never knew if they’d pick up the phone
You could’ve changed this outcome
This never could’ve happened
Now it’s probably too late
‘cause I might be gone
You’ve never seen this side of me
I’ve been drowned out by the fake
Love all the arguments and rivalries
These fights I’ve caused with a side of beef
And this overdose of anxiety
I need to talk about this
But I’m done with talkin’ about it privately
They say they gon’ be there for
You, but when you need them
They ain’t show up
They hate on you all the time
But they start dick-ridin’ when you blow up
They say they been there for
You since day one, But I don’t even know ya
Don’t try and tell me everythin’ is fine
‘cause my mind is beyond corrupt
I’m givin’ up, I surrender
I can’t live my life anymore
Maybe one day, you’ll understand
Why when it rains, It pours
Maybe one day
You’ll see what’s it’s like to
Live in a mental war
This might be my final goodbye
So I hope you see me beside the heaven doors

They don’t know what’s the deal
‘cause their conclusions jump ahead
There’s no way that I can
Heal, "You’ll be ok", That’s what they said
And I don’t know what to
Feel, other than the fact
I’m better off dead
But I know that this ain’t real
I know it’s all in my head

Nah fuck this shit, bro, I’m done, bro
I can’t deal with this anymore, bro
Should’ve done this a fuckin’ long time ago