CRUCIFIX - Mud lyrics

Everything I feel is mud nothing hurts
Quite like this does i
Feel it in my bones my
Whole world's spinning from above
And everything I am is mud
Dirty filthy i'm shapeless empty

Blood, sweat and tears fuel the hurt
Mixed with a lifetime of doing
Dirt and all the dirt brings
Pain until the tears flood
Then I wonder why
I'm standing knee deep in the mud trying
To believe in something with no
Evidence, can't tell the right over the
Wrong so I ride the fence
Because in the end only a terrified fool
Repents i'm so dirty that getting clean
Don't make no sense and since
I can't stop my world
From spinning I traded my
Soul for guns, money
Weed and women the only pleasure that I
Get is when I'm sinning this heart
Won't break but it keeps on bending been
In, been down this road before, in the back
Of my mind knowing everything gets old
Because when
I'm gone everything I loved fades quick
But every time I reach for the Truth I slip

Everything I feel is mud
Nothing hurts quite like
This does my whole world's
Spinning from above
And everything I am is mud

I can't take this confusion no more
Time to let it go pull
Myself together and try
Stepping out on my own a child born like
A paper doll
Because every step out on my own ends up a
Nasty fall i head straight down
Until I hit rock bottom
Then hear a voice in the chaos
Saying "I got him!" Then two
Hands slowly pick me up
I notice holes in the wrists as they lift
Me up out this mess I've made the
Hell I've been then all the sudden
Everything's spinning again i'm
Screaming, "God, where
You at? I thought that you loved
Me? I can't make it alone
Don't take your hand from me!"
Then everything goes still the
Spinning don't stop but His hand
Is all I feel
Then as I pray God use me to do your
Will I realize I'm standing
On a pottery wheel everything I am is mud in
My Father's hands above
Mold me make me take me break me

Everything I feel is mud
Nothing hurts quite like
This does my whole world's
Spinning from above
And everything I am is mud