Grace Gaustad - PILLBX lyrics

I don't like to wake up
Now that I'm a grown up
I'm never where I wanna be yeah
Try to keep my nose clean
Make my mama proud of me
Don't think about my fantasies

But I've been living two lives
One of 'em's in my mind
That's how I spend my free time
I'm runnin' out of white lies
And I'm runnin' out of white lines yeah
If you wanna know why I gotta such a bad side
I keep 'em on my bad side
I ask myself every night
Would I want a different life?

If you could take a pill and make it go away
Would you change your face, your race
Your weight? Wake up and say, "fuck it
I don’t care what they say"?
Would you rather be straight
Have a different last name?
Never run away or make your parents mistakes?
Have a love that lasting getting
Out of your head?
Never do another drug, never drink again?
Smoke another cigarette
Maybe choose better friends?
Wake up, heads up
I said open up your pill box
What you eat and what you love
Open up your pill box
If only we could write these up
Open up your pill box
I wish I had magic drugs
Open up your pill box
If only we could write these up

As much as I may want to
I can't ever love you
'Cause we don't like the same things yeah
I have a lot of secrets
Making love to my demons
Dying on the defense with a reason

'Cause I've been living two lives
One of 'em's in my mind
That's how I spend my free time
I'm runnin' out of white lies
And I'm runnin' out of white lines yeah
If you wanna know why I gotta such a bad side
I keep 'em on my bad side
I ask myself every night
Would I want a different life?

If you could take a pill and make it go away
Would you change your face, your race
Your weight? Wake up and say, "fuck it
I don’t care what they say"?
Would you rather be straight
Have a different last name?
Never run away or make your parents mistakes?
Have a love that lasting getting
Out of your head?
Never do another drug, never drink again?
Smoke another cigarette
Maybe choose better friends?
Wake up, heads up
I said open up your pill box
What you eat and what you love
Open up your pill box
If only we could write these up
Open up your pill box
I wish I had magic drugs
Open up your pill box
If only we could write these up

If you could take a pill and make it go away
Would you change your face, your race
Your weight? Wake up and say, "fuck it
I don’t care what they say"?
Would you rather be straight
Have a different last name?
Never run away or make your parents mistakes?
Have a love that lasting getting
Out of your head?
Never do another drug, never drink again?
Smoke another cigarette
Maybe choose better friends?
Wake up, heads up
I said open up your pill box
What you eat and what you love
Open up your pill box
If only we could write these up
Open up your pill box
I wish I had magic drugs
Open up your pill box
If only we could write these up