Grace Petrie - An Apology lyrics

Got possessed by a demon last night
By the name of drink
Used my mouth to say things
I don't even think
And I woke up in a muddle
You've no interest in a cuddle
There's a little brittle sadness in your eye
And I know once again I've hurt you
And once again I don't know why

I protest innocence and ignorance of
All the things I've said
And you say, "It must come from somewhere
It must live inside your head"
Explanations and excuses
While they have their uses
They can't fill the void I've
Made and though I try
The truth is that I've hurt you
And once again I don't know why

And it's not so much of an apology
As admission of confused reverse psychology
On the days when I can't
Keep my insecurities at bay
I'll push you and I'll push you and I'll push
You and I'll pray that you will stay

And these words the morning after they
Don't seem to have the weight
Of the words that escaped me last
Night after a drink or eight
As if I was on a
Mission to change beyond recognition
And I know it's true I have no alibi
All I know is that I've hurt you
And once again I don't know why

And these words they are elusive when
I try to make them real
The things you brought into my life
The way you've made me feel
A world ablaze with colours, comfort
Fires I can't deny
No, I never mean to hurt you
Darling truth is I would rather die

And it's not so much of an apology
As admission of confused reverse psychology
That on the days that I can't
Keep my insecurities at bay
I'll push you and I'll push you and I'll push
You and I'll pray that you will stay
On the days that I can't
Keep my insecurities at bay
I will push you and I'll push you and I'll
Push you and I'll pray that you will stay

Humming

On the days that I can't
Keep my insecurities at bay
I will push you and I'll push
You and I'll push you away
On the days that I can't
Keep my insecurities at bay
I will push you and I'll push you and I'll
Push you and I'll pray that you will stay
Oh, I'll push you and I'll push you and I'll
Push you and I'll pray that you will stay
I'll push you and I'll push you and I'll push
You and I'll pray that you will stay