Jamil - Unstable lyrics

My heart's so dark, I can't see myself
I'm out here just like "Aye let me be myself"
Sometimes I wanna leave myself
But, I can't get up out bed
These voices in my head
Say "just put down the pen
If you want the pain to end
Just free yourself"
Ain't it crazy when you think
You can't believe yourself?
When you're looking in the mirror
You can't see yourself
It's been hard enough to breathe
Myself and I done seen it
Everybody's life ain't scenic
Life ain't a movie
Motion pictures last forever
But my body won't
Sometimes I feel like I'm unstable
But then what's it to me nobody's perfect
Maybe this way I won't die alone
I got a life to live, that's what my mama say
I wanna trust her, but I'm only on a holiday
So when I get back to my
Life what will I do then
Cause if my life is worth a penny
It's the Hardaway unstable

I've been digging a grave with the parts
Of my brain that still work
They're burying me with my dead dreams
My dead dreams

I been praying but I still hurt
I been waiting on the day
I feel these pills work
I been waiting on the day
Somebody knows my pain
So I can finally get off
This dose of novacane
I don't wanna talk to people
They don't know me mane
I'm even talking like I'm not myself
I need another dose pills, doc
No help, I'll draw my chalk line by myself
I only say it cause you feel it too
You wanna change, that's just the real in you
I know it's true I got that feeling too
And if you hope and pray
I bet you'll feel that feeling move
I bet you feel it like a
Blossom and you need it
To grow the seed of change
And if God's with it, you can't beat it
I been winning, I'm conceited no
I'm modest i'm just honest
I'm just trying to say that you are not alone
We're all unstable