Lowkey, Mai Khalil - Dreamers lyrics

This one is dedicated to the dreamers
Most people see things that are
There and ask why
Dreamers, see things that aren't there
And ask why not i'm dreamin' with you

I once knew a girl who on the
Surface was as solid as a rock
Future full of promise and mind
Seemed stronger than an ox
Face of beauty and a tongue was
As honest as it got that wasn't what is was
Problem rock bottom she was lost
I couldn't see this sweet genius
Was full of secrets
Full of demons that pulled her deeper
In this pool of leeches
Confused by the news
I was bruised when they told me
It concludes to the truth
Was she consumed by the loneliness?
She was a true queen, nothing like Elizabeth
Often caught her starin' into space
With a distant look
Considerate but detached from others
Even when intimate
Now I'm searchin' for answers I'd
Never find in a book last time I saw her
Before the day she took her life
I wish I fixed her pain, I shoulda, coulda
Woulda tried
But I took it personally and turned to leave
And to this day I'm still haunted
By the words she screamed
Sometimes I really really hate myself
Sometimes I wish that I could change myself
Sometimes I don't wanna give no more
And sometimes I just don't wanna live no more
Sometimes I don't know where to go for help
Sometimes I don't really know myself
Sometimes I wish that I could fly away
And find away to a brighter day

They say that life is a question
And death is the answer
But Niko lost his brother and
Rewds lost his father
God bless your souls please know
That I love you both
They say time heals but the
Pain still doesn't go
I've seen my brother die and
Seen my mother cry
Seen the wind change with the
Flutter of a butterfly
Seen people get sectioned for life
I think and wonder a small twist of fate
That could've been my brother
25 years a life could say thus far
I always have wondered who the sane ones are
Though I live by the words "fear not"
I'm afraid when I wrote this so many
Tears dropped on the page
It's mad how death always manifests
In the weirdest ways
Won't go near the grave but in
My dreams he appears the same
Then I get closer and see his face
It's clear as day
He looks me deep in the eyes
And I hear him say
Sometimes I really really hate myself
Sometimes I wish that I could change myself
Sometimes I don't wanna give no more
And sometimes I just don't wanna live no more
Sometimes I don't know where to go for help
Sometimes I don't really know myself
Sometimes I wish that I could fly away
And find away to a brighter day