Mia X - RIP Jill lyrics

Its not a day in my life that goes by
That I don't get high as
The tears fill my eyes and I scream why
Did my sister have to die Lord
Take these evil plots off my mind Lord
Its not a day in my life that goes by
That I don't get high as
The tears fill my eyes and I scream why
Did my sister have to die Lord
Take these evil plots off my mind Lord

It's so hard to say goodbye to what we had
I'm still mad
I'm still bitter, no still get rid of
Pain inside me been active two years
It's like it happened yesterday and
I'm consumed in tears i feel ya near
But, it's not the same, won't be the same
We can't call each other up
For advice or hang no more
Nigga to that left me with some memories
Tangled with the thoughts that he bleeds
Dies slowly for sholy
My needs to see him suffer fucks with my mind
And leaves a cluster of rage and hate inside
Thou shall not kill, an eye for an eye
Turn the other cheek, you reap what you sow
Which way should I go
So many times I contemplate on murder
Cause only a monster could of hurt ya
You're a ghetto flower
So every hour, minute, second of the day
I pray that turmoil haunts his whole family
Till eternal sleep
From the elderly to the unborn
You cannot know how I feel till
You mourn how I've mourned it's all real
I love hard and hate with a passion
So when they took my best friend
My heart shattered and left me empty
I used to had been in love
And all my niggas trying to figure out
Why it's so tough for me
To love em' like I'm supposed to
But since you got killed Jill it's hard
For me to get close to
Anybody who cares for me
So I been dealing with this pain by my lonely
I strongly despise
Motherfuckers trying to speak your mind
Whoever knew you
With pitchfork tongues spreading rumors
This dame ain't bout shit without
My sister by my side
My strength, my best friend
My pride makes me wanna ride
Jill I know you got your wings
Fixed hair up in Heaven
While Michelle sings "Precious Love"
It's so hard for me to let go
Because the hate has stayed in my
Soul and made me so cold
Even though I know she's resting now
A major part of my life was cut out
Pray for me Lord

Its not a day in my life that goes by
That I don't get high as
The tears fill my eyes and I scream why
Did my sister have to die Lord
Take these evil plots off my mind Lord
Its not a day in my life that goes by
That I don't get high as
The tears fill my eyes and I scream why
Did my sister have to die Lord
Take these evil plots off my mind Lord