Midwxst - Trying lyrics

Walk a long road with myself
No one by my side
Put out my hand and reach for help
But nobody saw my signs
Don't wan' wake up, everyday I been trying
I put my face inside my hoodie
Sleeves to stop all my crying
And I might say that I'm okay
But I hope you know that I'm lying
I might just succumb to my thoughts
I think I'm tired of trying, hm

In the spotlight and the lights
They best not dim i done take so many L's
I think it's time for me to win
Feelings come out of my brain and
Start to crawl throughout my skin
Gotta wipe away my tears because
They're fallin' off my chin, yeah
I'm finna never take no L's
I don't like to talk to randoms so
Don't hit up on my cell, nah
You ain't ever seen this side of me
I'm comin' out my shell
If you talk to me, you better watch
Your tone, boy, do not yell, nah

Back to the basics, wake up and go to sleep
Don't know who's my friend
I don't know they even care for me
People always ditch me
I wonder when they're gonna leave
Hood over my head
But the wind is blowing all on me
Sticks and stones may break my bones
Don't need friends, better off alone
Leave my side, you can fuck off and go
Got some snakes in the grass
I think I need to mow

People say they ride or die
But then they stab you in your back and leave
And that's why I don't trust
What niggas say, no, i cannot believe
And now you know why I keep my circle small
'cause people lie to me
I'm finna watch out for all my brothers
Go up finally
You a bitch, boy, I could give less
Don't give a fuck
You was cappin' on the gang
So now we gotta come run up
Shots is gonna fuckin' shoot at you, yeah
We gon' let it bust
My bad, nigga, I'm so sorry
Didn't mean to cuss, sike

Walk a long road with myself
No one by my side
Put out my hand and reach for help
But nobody saw my signs
Don't wan' wake up, everyday I been trying
I put my face inside my hoodie
Sleeves to stop all my crying
And I might say that I'm okay
But I hope you know that I'm lying
I might just succumb to my thoughts
I think I'm tired of trying, hm