Plan B - Feelings lyrics

These pain pills are depressing
Said she sent a text
I guess I never got the message hard headed
All the stress keeps my heart arrested
Will you still love me even if
I never learn my lesson
These are my confessions based
Off my broken blessings
Running from affection back to
My money making methods
My obsession with the streets
Fuels my aggression
Burden by my past left with so many questions
Life is a crash course such a hard road
Wore my heart on my sleeve now my arms broke
Still the scars show broken by my misery
Xanax bar please, erase me from my memories
I've been trapt inside my mind
Like I'm doing time
I see darkness very seldom see the sun shine
These feelings that I'm feeling I swear
To god don't nobody know
Heart broken and I'll be damned
If I let it show
The pain increases as the pills
Tear apart my soul no second guessing
Do me a favor and let me let you go
A lot of people say they love
Me but I'm all alone
Consequences from my actions now my mind gone
It's so hard to carry on
When your on your own
Now I'm spending nights praying that
I make it home
Conversations on the phone and missed calls
Baby mama slammed the door and
Told me get lost she still holds a grudge
I guess I can't escape the past
Get involved with different women
But they never last
Now I never laugh, lord be my witness
Karma caught me before I
Ever found forgiveness this shit is crazy
It's repetitive it happens daily
Once a good man now I'm the
Way that y'all made me
Steady turning pages in search
Of a different chapter
Welcome to the aftermath of my disaster
My mind is racing faster for the finer things
But lately I don't give a
Fuck about a damn thing
Gone insane coz my life ain't a fuckin game
Try to take what I love and
You gon meet the flame
Motherfucker I ain't playin on no fake shit
Runnin out of time and I
Done lost my patience
Every day is a test, livin ain't that easy
My drug habit's out of hand
And it keeps increasing
Now I'm having long conversations
With my heart
Apologizing coz I let a bitch tear it apart
Surrounded by the marijuana smoke in my cigar
Sitting all alone, now I'm back at the start
Searching for some closure but it
Seems my soul is scared
Now as I grow older I see love is a facade
With the world on my shoulders
Feeling I'm in the dark
Shattered my ambitions out here barred
I gotta pray to god that I
Make it through the evening
The heat I gotta keep incase
My enemies get even
I gotta stay alive for my child
That's my reason this is what I hide inside
And these are my feelings