Rittz - My Window lyrics

Fake smile on my face, feeling suicidal
Safety off of my gun
Can't tell it was real or a cry for help
But I feel like if I don't make one
I'ma follow through
My girl gonna follow suit cause she
Tries every time I'm gone
Last tour, she done slit her wrists and
This time she done OD'd, blacked out
And broke her arm
Feel bad, lyin' to her bout the coke I done
The doc said if I keep
Drinking Coke and Crown
I won't make it to see 38
Then I'm wasted again on the
Floor in the hotel room
With puke stains on the drapes and the carpet
Gotta call at eight o'clock in the morning
Said my boy took the keys to my car and drove
It through the front door of an Exxon and
Cops came and, locked him up
They said they had a warrant
Now I'm spending all my tour
Money on his lawyer
Lord if, this is you sending us a warning
I hear it loud and clear and please
God I swear i won't ignore it anymore
This type of torment is torture
But show us a way
On my knees and I'm screaming to
God and I heard him say

He told me when it rains it pours
And I can hear the pouring rain
It feels just like a hurricane just
Came right outside my window woah oh
But one day when the rain is gone
The thunder from the storm rolls on
I woke up and I seen the sun
And it shine right inside my window
And it feels like euphoria

Some kid just sent a DM to me
And told me everything I rap about
Feel like it happened to him identically
That he was listening to Misery Loves Company
And Wishin, Rittz I feel just like you
Im tryna rap and I'm flunkin' school
The only thing I really care
About in this world is my girl and she been
Fucking with another dude
And I was hoping maybe you would
Tell me what to do
I'm tryna make it with the scraps that I have
Working fast for the stack of some cash
But, it's like I'm losing
The enthusiasm I have
Trying to master the craft as a rapper
All I hear is laughter just got
In a scrap with my dad
He hit me in the eye and he blackened it bad
All I ever wanted from him was
A pat on the back
And I bet if I was dead he'd be glad
Hit him back so relax, this how life works
When you feel like you sitting
At the bottom You not
To get better, shit gets worse first
Gotta reverse the negative vibe
Keep praying to God I don't believe
In a made up curse
Told him that I prayed to the Lord
And he said these words

He told me when it rains it pours
And I can hear the pouring rain
It feels just like a hurricane just
Came right outside my window woah oh
But one day when the rain is gone
The thunder from the storm rolls on
I woke up and I seen the sun
And it shine right inside my window
And it feels like euphoria

Euphoria we keep pourin' up
A big enormous cup of Crown Royal
Puff another joint and trust
You’re gonna hoist me up
When the devil wanna stick a pitchfork in us
Or wanna burn us in a furnace till we boil up
Beggin' The Lord above
To show remorse for us
We was born in a metamorphosis
Formed in something far less unfortunate
We absorbed enough pain to push the rush
Through our veins like a
Sting from a scorpion
We ashamed ‘cause we can’t afford the stuff
We wanna buy hard to find some form of love
Or find a formula, of course sure enough
You in a rut now
Layin’ on the floor in cuffs
They say the storm is comin'
But the lightning shoulda never
Fucked with us 'Cause they told me –

He told me when it rains it pours
And I can hear the pouring rain
It feels just like a hurricane just
Came right outside my window woah oh
But one day when the rain is gone
The thunder from the storm rolls on
I woke up and I seen the sun
And it shine right inside my window
And it feels like euphoria