Z-Ro - I Go Through So Much lyrics

I go through so much
So I try to stay fucked up
Because, when I'm sober I can't maintain
Even though I do my best
The only thing I earn is stress so I
Spend most of my days chilling with Mary Jane

Lately I've been going through more bullshit
Than a bull fighter
So when I sing my praises to God
One verse is like a full choir
My every thought is pain
Strain is stressing me to death
Everyday is like a rehearsal
That's prepping me for death
I think I'm ready
Because this world ain't no friend of mine
Only thing I qualify fo'
Is murder and Penitentiary time
Y'all should of shot me in the jimmy, instead
But, I guess they was feeling eachother
And get head in the bed here I am
First born torn between heaven and hell
I tell my people say no to dope
But I let it sell
Need to practice my preaching
Calling the kettle black
I know I'm a Pac before or not
I gotta peddle crack
Ain't nobody got my back except the laws
When they on it so I be going for broke
Demolishing my opponents leaving no traces
Just blood on faces believe that
HK I'mma squeeze that
You won't even wan' be back

I can't focus I'm losing my mind, real fast
Dreaming and fiending for the day
I can make some real cash
Dropping album after album
Platinum song after song
But, it's like I ain't did nothing
Cause the lights ain't on how can I win
It's like everything I do
Is a motherfucking sin
It got a nigga fiending, to see my end
All of my friends are fake
They come around when I'm spending cash
But when I'm broke they out the do'
With wheels spinning fast
Lonely, daily dodging the devil but he on me
Telling my people fuck him
Cause he be working through my homies
Burning bridges, and I don't give a fuck
Remember y'all laughing at me
When I couldn't get a buck
It's all gravy baby
I got bigger hurdles I'm trying
To jump over my residence
And my fear, gon be something I dump over
And it might not be much, but it's all I got
So when I paint it, promethazyne is all I pop

I trust nobody even best friends
Be digging your grave niggas go on lock
When they come out wifey giving them AIDS
I don't give a fuck what anybody think
About me when I was breaking my back for em
They didn't think about me
Got hot at a nigga
But they know that I'm raw
Too nervous to face a madman
So they go and shoot up my car
I got too many niggas
Trying to take me off of my game
And every woman I be feeling
Be fucking with my brain now that I'm gone
I love you mean I'm leaving you soon
Plus I don't feel the way I did
At first I need me some room
Too familiar with heart ache and pain
It don't hurt no mo' just homesick
I don't wanna be on this earth no mo'
Flirt with my chrome 4-4
Cause she believe what I say
She ain't gon ask me no questions
She just gon leave em to lay
And leaving no traces
Just blood on faces she down with it
Stay rolling around with me
When I'm down she down with me