Lieu - ​does this make u feel better lyrics

I won't feel alive for now
I promise you I'll try for now
But you will die soon or later
Feelings on the paper
You won't hear me crying out oh no
Give me a chance
Put my hand in the bandwidth
I want to feel something alive
But I can't have shit maybe I'll manage
But for now it seems like I'm dying
And I'm dying it's fine I promise you
Drink the water out the faucet
And I cry every time I'm reminded of you
I might fucking end it all
Bring it up again please
My mind is leaking adderall
So many things against me
Why can't I get up after I fall
I do it again even if it hurts my head
But I want you next to me
I don't need any friends and I wanna be dead
I don't need any ecstasy
I don't get any rest
Put a knife to my chest
Would you sit there and watch me bleed
Laying down in my bed only think about you
When I know that you don't think about me
I try I promise dreaming about you at night
All said and done tell me
This is what you wanted