Love-sadKID, Jay Squared - Idk What lyrics

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Lately I been dropping all my calls
Lately I been ignoring the emails
Working hard to get a couple
Records on the wall day to day a race to pay
Attention to the detail i just wanna break
Start to think sometimes that I might fall
See my friends all having
Fun without me there
I breathe air through the lungs
That make me revenue incredible
Wish that I could hate without
The residue of youth
I just wanna pick apart the pedestal that
You used to move on
The charisma you faked just to keep strong
And all the lies that you're
Fated for a new dawn
I just hope it never takes long
I just hope it never takes long
Cause I know I ain’t got
Strength just to stay warm
And change? To be frank leaves me
Sleeping with the shades drawn
I hate y'all
And I hate that my brain feels like napalm
Just to state if I break I'll
Keep going just to save moms
But til then every day is the same song
I don’t know what

I don't really know what you want from me
I don't really know what you want from me

2014 I was tired as hell, started doing shows
Gonna go on the road
But I learned I was broke left pops house
Felt real low but I still had hope
2015 I gave up my health
Smoking cigarettes just to hunt down death
Getting bigger in a major major way
350lbs carried major weight
2016 lost the love of my life
Made her cheeks so damn red when she cried
Should've known better than to rock
With a rat chick had nowhere to go had to
Move back to daddy's
Now I'm not making much
But I'm making it happen
I wonder life would be
Dawg without this rapping
This rapping thing is a part of me pardon me
If I don't listen to what
You’d want from me though

I don’t really know what you want from me
I don't really know what you want from me