156/Silence - A Violent Delight lyrics

Deception, only feature
A pestilential attribute as your fame
A lesson you neglect to ascertain

You just disrupt, disgust, distrust, dig up
Make fuss enough’s enough and I never want
To see you again
Before I knew it I was playing a part in this
Pathetic dog and pony act you
Called a better living

To think that everything could
Worsen with our sins
I should have known that everyone around me
Was cursed with a sense of loss
Just a lesser cause building me
Up just to be dropped
I’ll always end up questioning you

"Why so condescending with your undertones?"
If I go then you’ll surely
Fail to stay afloat the price rose
Now your life is just a debt you owe
All I know is that I might take it

But I can’t take it now I can’t take this
Dependency on everything
That doesn’t defend me at all
I dissolve just to feel the debilitation

Creep in and crawl across the
Walls of my conscience
I never want to sit amongst
The ones talking dog shit
If everything is nothing
How come I can’t just drop this?
If happiness is coming
How come I haven’t caught it all to myself?
I’m becoming a monster and far from
Capable of branching out for
Help to the ones who have
Sworn to me absolution

Send me a sign that I’ll get better
You can tell me a lie, I won’t remember
When I’m ready to die I’ll leave a letter
If I hand you a knife, sign your initials

It’s a series of losses
That halts our progression
If the searing would pause I
Could stop our resentment
With an eerie applause
I am drawn to your presence
If I show you my flaws show me your devils

With the steel cold
We’ll find warmth in something grimmer
Still born i’ll show you my devils

Send me a sign that I’ll get better
You can tell me a lie, I won’t remember
When I’m ready to die I’ll leave a letter
If I hand you a knife