156/Silence - Coup De Grâce (The Final Blow) letra de (lyrics)

It seems like I’m back in this place again
Like I never left as if there’d ever be the
Briefest relief in strain
Don’t hold your breath

My final note I leave will read "Things
Could have been so much worse"
I hurt for all the wrong reasons
Of course you’re only there
When it benefit's you

Put yourself in my place and tell
Me what should be done
Push me over the edge and don’t regret
When I fall flat on my face
How can I unlace harnesses holding
Me to the sub base? Awfully luckless
Lovelorn and rusted into a shadow of what
I once was when everything wasn’t grey
They don’t see
They don’t understand what I’ve
Been put through
The things I say won’t always stay
True but if I may
Let me reveal to you everything the shade
Doesn’t want you to see through
Will you watch as I talk
With walls I walk along?
Dragging blood down every single
Hall to paint every pain that you’ve left me
Let me feel empty just as I should be
Deprivation sinks into my keepsakes
Hesitations risk everything we’ve made ours

But this is nothing new (This is nothing new)
What's the use? (What's the use?)
What's the use if I’m just
Tried as something unwelcome?
Another line for everyone helping me to
Swallow pride and bury misfortunes
I have come to find
That everything’s worsening and
If I die far before I intend to
Keep me alive in your memory
Separate me from my lies
And the morbid aversions
I cannot decide if I deserve
Anything but severed ties
And these torturous horrors every
Day and night
I still fear looking forward at my
Future life without your reinforcement
As hurtful roses
The final blow you spoke to me
Was "Don’t hold your breath"