156/Silence - Say the Phrase lyrics

I've seen it for myself

Weighing down rupturing sternums
Remains unsound lower the curtains at once

What if I could drop this?
Find another way to cope with
All of these impulses all these false hints
Still my conscience is obnoxious
It's a wrong fit
I'm repulsively in love with just a pulse
Living dishonestly
A pulp of my humanity is chasing me

A sudden change of heart creates
A force that breaks apart
The walls of everything that
I've involved myself with
Harm my health and cause obstructions
Never resolving the ways we've lost
Under the watch of
An armless clock counting on me to revert

But this time nothing connects my sense
Of ambition with a sufficient cause
Am I just wasting my life with a
Futile gamble I could never conquer?

As I ponder this
The water is arising up above my neck
And starting to enthrall me with the
Threat of you just swallowing a steady stream
Of flames to add some pain
The numbing aches throughout preventing
The punishment I require
I desire highs and fire
Gives me the feeling of
Euphoric associations of revulsion
Feeding me into abyss

It has to be something to relate
Rapidly, I articulate a phrase
To actively convolve
Passively, I'll do what I'm told
But procrastinate until the very
Last moment I hold to
Encapsulate everything that folds
It’s not half the pain of having
To accept I'm growing older

In time we'll be back to the unknown
Where it’s fine to be the
Kind of being one would not condone
To negotiate anything at all
Printed finely beneath you
It's signed "Silence is Golden"

It's signed "Silence is Golden"
It's signed "Silence is Golden"
It's signed "Silence is Golden"
It's signed "Silence is Golden"
It's signed "Silence is Golden"
It's signed "Silence is Golden"
It's signed "Silence is Golden" it's