Deca - China White lyrics

It's been a long time coming
Still hasn't arrived
Lost love, sacrificed over madness and pride
And it's hard to let go
We keep the magic alive
'Til you outgrow your old self
And cast it aside
Don't remorse over the past, I'm
(happy in thought?)
Though my time for atonement
Kept passing me by
Try to explain my actions and rationalize
But never had an answer when my
Love was asking me why it's the same now
From an ever-present rain cloud
To the way I earn a living
And neglect my brain child
But I made it out by some strangе luck
Used to blow lines and fuck
'til the sun camе up
Between thoughts that were foreign to me
Twisting and turning broke promises
And had to live with the burden
In the, grips of the serpent
Trying to breathe
Felt my only way out was to lie and deceive

She keeps asking me why?
If you knew my past, you'd know the rest
And that's my only reply
Still tripping over someone that
I let slip by
And I've grown too detached to try
She keeps asking me
Why the long face? Every day you grow colder
Every question is answered with
A cold shoulder it's like I can't help but
To give in to needs
Then I slowly lose interest and leave
She keeps asking me

Yeah, I've asked the same question to God
Left a part of life's lessons like
The rest of the mob
Soul seven, some prophesied the end soon come
With the onslaught of violence
Many men grew numb i lost
One of my people to the edge of a knife
A blade cut his throat and
Prematurely ended his life
But he proved himself to be a
Loyal friend in the end
And got taken from this world
For defending his kin
These are strange times indeed
I self-medicate in an attempt to try
And put my mind at ease
We gave no thought to
The repercussions at first
Now we're witnessing the whole-scale
Destruction of Earth
Tax dollars form blood-stained army fatigues
And our politicians feed off
Of carnage and greed
The serpent tightens it's grip
It's getting harder to breathe
I look to the heavens for
Answers and wanna believe

I keep asking him why?
What's the purpose behind this? But never
Seem to get a reply
Still, you can't lose faith when
You look to the sky
Haven't grown too bitter to try
I keep asking him
Why the homie have to lose his life?
Why do so many suffer trying
To do what's right? Hell, asperous fate
It's tragic how it often ends
We've lost touch with the God within
I keep asking him

This inner conflict has helped
Me perfect my artistry
The God in me's fatherly
It's hard to neglect that part of me
Started to see the stars and
Galaxies run through my arteries
And understand that the state of the world
Ain't how it ought to be
Ten devotion and party prone to debauchery
The only thing stopping me from
Profiting off it's probably
Paranoia's got me feeling like
Someone's always watching me
Don't want to be property of the state
And have to cop a plea
Every month or so, I see the P-O
For getting caught up with liquid O-C and C-O
Little does he know I still
Read up on the low
But give him the impression that
Everything is under control
Can't shake the illusion that
I'm living it up
Despite everybody saying I should
Give the shit up in the belly of the beast
In the pit of his gut
Swallowed whole by the serpent
Not giving a fuck

They keep asking me why?
Man, I'm in too deep
I gotta find another way to get by
From the beginning I already knew
The stakes were high
Now I know I gotta break my ties
They keep asking me
Why the long face? Every day you grow colder
Every question is answered with
A cold shoulder
Every attempt to quit the life is in vain
And everybody says Deca you've changed
They keep telling me