Eboi - I Grew Up Text (lyrics)

I grew up where you can't be black and local
Where raising your voice is just
A waste of vocals too many prisoners
No moguls where the so-called natives
A handful in total
Where they live by the motto
''what you waiting for?''
Where everybody in the race for more
Most of 'em came to Sweden to escape a war
Life's a bitch, but I'mma rape the whore
Where harassments and random inspections
Are carried out
Based on your name on complexion
Remember growing up and what I wanted most
Was to be viewed as one of them
Not one of those
People from thirty nations live
In my building alone this where we grew up
How come we ain't feeling at home?
That's really not the problem here
That's my excuse for not handling
Issues i was facing for a lot of years

See every night I was praying
Though I was feeling hopeless
I was always smiling so
You would never notice
You're just scratching the surface of
What you barely know i need a shrink bad
But I'm scared to go
If I explained it to you
Would you believe me?
A trusted guardian who didn't want to feed me
Based on the fact i wasn't full black
Psychologically I switched off
And pulled back
And my stepdad don't hear too much of a nigga
Don't see the reason for it
But i love a nigga
I mean, how dare he betray my mother
Momma ain't pregnant now i got a baby brother
My mind-state was always move on tough luck
I'm twenty something now -
Successful and fucked up
I can no longer keep this hatred inside
Mom, i think it's time to
Finally take your advice