Flowz Dilione - Afraid lyrics

Flowz one afraid
Check it yeah

Please I need help, I don't eat well
I have depression and my mind
Is that weak health
Every fuckin day I wake up and I see hell
That's why I wanna cut myself
Until I bleed out
I fuckin hate that I'm a negative person
As soon as I wake up
I feel empty and worthless
And bipolar that's just
Scratchin the surface
Imagine living your life without
Havin a purpose
I don't even know myself anymore
When I look into a mirror I see nothin at all
And bloodstains just cover the floor
In most of the
House where I've punched all of the walls
Because I have so much anger inside of me
Lost in my eternal search for sobriety
And the grip of addiction is tightening
But honestly the thought of
Reality's more frightening

Why do you keep on whispering?
Talking with your face turned away
You say that love don't come easy for you
What makes you think I ain't afraid?

Yo, check it
I need to stand tall and not be afraid
I need to let go of what I can't obtain
Stuck in my past I'm
Trapped with the memories
Battling with myself it is I who is the enemy
An artist of war alone on the battlefield
My pen is my sword and
Notebook is my battle shield
It's been over six months since
I've had a meal
I'm nineteen and weigh sixty kilos
And that's for real fuck I hate this
But, I made this person that I am
It is my own self creation
So much hatred is flowing
Through my veins and
I have cancerous thoughts growing in my brain
I can't take the pain
Yo I'm going insane and I need a
Razor blade to take away the pain
Cause, I can't face the day
And I'm ashamed to say
That for nineteen fucking years I
Have remained the same

Yeah with these last drops of ink in my pen
I just want to say goodbye to
All my family and friends
Because I hate being an enemy to them
I've hurt them my whole life
Maybe they'll feel better when I'm dead
And I'll tell you why I feel like this
I'll tell you why when I wake
Up I feel like shit
It's because when I wake up
I've got nobody to hold
When I need to feel warmth
And I only feel cold
All I need is somebody to
Understand the thoughts that are
In my head and the person I really am
I need someone to hold my hand
Somebody to hold my heart
Because without love and affection it's
Going to break in half
So what am I supposed to do
When you're so far away and I
Need to be close to you?
I lock myself inside a lonely room, grab
A gun and a bullet then lock, load and shoot

Rest in Peace Allem fuckin miss you man
WIll always be in our hearts