Heart to Gold - Gimpy lyrics

I am emotional although I know
I don't have heart this is impractical
Yet I know it's just a start
I wish I could feel your pain
It's the closest thing to art
I wish i could see your face
When this dullness all seems sharp

& if there's one thing I'll remember
It's how, I felt
When I fought those kids for the first time
& if there's one thing I'll regret
It's how drunk, you get
Then I'm on your mind at the worst time

I don't mind am I a tortured soul?
Should I just let it go?