HKFiftyOne - ​losing everything lyrics

Maybe you could tell I'm sick
And tired of losing everything
When you hit me up, want me to smile
But I could never be
Happy in my brain, I used to fight it
Now it's killing me winter's coming soon
I really hope that it don't get to me

Think I'm always freezing
But my brain just won't admit it
Seek out every feeling in my soul
So I could kill it
Always feel too much like every
Day don't wanna live it
You could take this gun and splat
My brains and see my spirit

You don't understand, I'm just so done
Try to go away, but I won't run
Feeling all this pain, but I won't jump
Say that I could stay, but it's no fun

What's the point to living if
I'm feeling dead already?
Know my bed is just a coffin is my cemetery
And my brain is just a prison
I'll admit it's scary
Waking up knowing I'm breathing
Where I'm getting buried
I'm just tired of losing everything
Like my mind, but the pain
It'll never leave
I'm just tired of losing everything
Never happy
So I guess it wasn't meant to be


Fucking done, you can tell I'm getting lazy
Fuck a check
Yeah you might just call me crazy
Fucking wreck
Give a shit if you don't pay me
Fucking dead, what I'm living on the daily

I gave up, so just stay out my business
Leave me alone, 'cause if not I'll be livid
Gave all I had, but I fell short the minute
I tried to reach out, but then I hit my limit

You don't understand, I'm just so done
Try to go away, but I won't run
Feeling all this pain, but I won't jump
Say that I could stay, but it's no fun

What's the point to living if
I'm feeling dead already?
Know my bed is just a coffin is my cemetery
And my brain is just a prison
I'll admit it's scary
Waking up knowing I'm breathing
Where I'm getting buried
I'm just tired of losing everything
Like my mind, but the pain
It'll never leave
I'm just tired of losing everything
Never happy
So I guess it wasn't meant to be


Fucking done, you can tell I'm getting lazy
Fuck a check
Yeah you might just call me crazy
Fucking wreck
Give a shit if you don't pay me
Fucking dead, what I'm living on the daily

What's the point to living if
I'm feeling dead already?
Know my bed is just a coffin is my cemetery
And my brain is just a prison
I'll admit it's scary
Waking up knowing I'm breathing
Where I'm getting buried
I'm just tired of losing everything
Like my mind, but the pain
It'll never leave
I'm just tired of losing everything
Never happy
So I guess it wasn't meant to be