Hopsin - Pillow Man lyrics

I've spent about ten years tryna
Work on my craft
Tryna save this Hip-Hop shit and
Disperse of the trash
But all my nerves have just crashed
'cause all the verses I've thrashed
Were meant to benefit my future
I'm uncertain it has
I rarely ever put something out
To insert in your dash
'Cause as soon as I became a brand
My whole purpose was smashed
I'm feelin' nervous, in fact
I got no urges to rap
Now I don't think my fucking life
Can get more worthless than that
I see these niggas blowing up who
Never do got the proper game
Niggas who fucking suck
Gucci and Waka Flocka Flame
Niggas who makin' bucks
Someone tell me I'm not insane
'Cause, I feel the urge to run up on
A bitch ass nigga and rob his chain
Dang! I thought I had it figured out
See, I panic and I pout
Yo, I've had it, man, i'm out
God damn it, this shit's a clout
I'm the baddest, ain't no doubt
But my madness is about to turn
Me manic 'til I shout

How come the world is always quick
To turn they back on me?
Won't somebody tell me?
You can go ahead and fall asleep
I'll be in your dreams
Maybe I'm the Pillow Man
Maybe I'm the Pillow Man
I'll be in your dreams
Maybe I'm the Pillow Man
Maybe I'm the Pillow Man
I'll be in your dreams

You all assume I'm evil
But actually I'm so nice
I've always been the lover boy
Like practically my whole life
Unhappy here with no wife, don't ask me
I don't know why
I'm livin' life without no type
Of strategy to go by
I knew a bitch who I would go
Pick up when the day starts
A bitch who'd even like to watch
Me skate at the skate park
A bitch who I was making out
With up in the graveyard
The same bitch who went and left
My ass with a slayed heart
She cut it like an avocado
Secretly hittin' clubs and poppin' bottles
Hanging with thugs or sucking a lots of cock
Yo the biggest slut from Loveland, Colorado
Fuck a ho, that's Hopsin's motto
My heart is vacant, you knock it's hollow
She met another guy who left
The baby stuck inside her vagina
Then he just split and messed
Up her fuckin' life
Now she hit's me up and I
Say, "Go suck a nut, goodbye"
All you sluts can die for wasting
All my sacred love supply

How come the world is always quick
To turn they back on me?
Won't somebody tell me?
You can go ahead and fall asleep
I'll be in your dreams
Maybe I'm the Pillow Man
Maybe I'm the Pillow Man
I'll be in your dreams
Maybe I'm the Pillow Man
Maybe I'm the Pillow Man
I'll be in your dreams

To live a decent life, what all does it take?
I've tried and tried to be the best
But nothing falls in the place
And I'm a man
But my struggle is gonna cause me to break
And just evolve me to hate
I'm in a nauseous state
And, shit, it probably is fate, but
Who's in control of it, me or God?
Is he the cause? Then why am
I here? The reason's odd
I'm broke and need a job
For spending cheese on broads
But y'all don't see the flaws
I coat it up to keep it raw
And MC's who's got the most
Talent in this whole planet
Don't never get recognized when
They dope at it so they go back to the
Block hustlin' the dope addicts
Some niggas got the "it" factor
Some niggas don't have it
Yo, I'm at my last ends
'Cause every time I think I'm out the matrix
I get sucked right back in but, man
I'm hopin' things'll change and the
Soul in me remains
'Cause the talent that I got is
Way too cold to be contained

No, no what did I do to deserve this?
No, no i don't even have a purpose
(Pillow Man) No, no
(Pillow Man) What did I do to deserve this?
(Pillow Man) No, no
(Pillow Man) I don't even have a purpose

How come the world is always quick
To turn they back on me?
Won't somebody tell me?
You can go ahead and fall asleep
I'll be in your dreams
Maybe I'm the Pillow Man
Maybe I'm the Pillow Man
I'll be in your dreams
Maybe I'm the Pillow Man
Maybe I'm the Pillow Man
I'll be in your dreams