Jennette McCurdy - I am not a role model. lyrics

I am not a role model
I don't claim to be, I don't try to be
And I don't want to be
There was a time when I tried to
Live up to the aggrandizing title
That pedestal of a thing maybe it wasn't so
Much that I was trying to live
Up to it perhaps I
Thought I could and I thought
I was supposed to, so I gave it my best shot
It's fine, I can admit it
Back in my adolescence, i
Was more amiable, bubbly, and
On lightly humid days
Maybe even flouncy i was role
Model material and then some
Fast forward a few years, I've grown up a bit
(emphasis on "a bit") i might
Not be any wiser
But I like to think I'm more honest
With the growing I've done
I realize that to attempt to live
Up to the idea of being
A role model is to set
Myself up for foregone failure
Sure, I've made some mistakes, but
Even if I hadn't, people would have found
Invisible ones this world is one seemingly
Most keen on judgment and negativity
Despite all the hearts and smiley emoticons
To remove myself from the role model battle
The falsified standard set by
The bubblegum industry
Is - in my eyes - to remove
Myself from the counterintuitive battle of
Attempting to be something
Perfect while being
Glaringly aware of my imperfections
Sure, I still love my teddy bears
I still love a heart emoji
(the white heart in the pink box is my
Favorite) and I still have a soft
Spot for American Girl dolls i still love
A cute dress, a good pop song
And a vanilla-scented candle but
These things don't define me or
Determine that I am
Any kind of a role model what defines
A person as a role model is the way
They live their life and no offense
But none of you know how I live my life
Now before you start thinking
I'm some sort of
Derelict that leads a life of crime
Let me clarify i am proud of the
Way I live my life i
Am proud of my choices i am
Proud that no one can call
Me fake or say I don't stand
Up for myself i am proud
That my friends and family would say
That I'm a good person
But in order to be thought of
As a real, true role model
I believe you have to know
A person and their actions
Inside and out calling a celebrity a
Role model is like calling a
Stranger a role model the knowledge you
Have of a celebrity is
No more than a caricature drawn by
Media tastemakers specializing in selling you
An image you’re dying to buy
It’s good to have heroes, but
You have to look for them in
The right places they say
Don’t look for true love in
A bar, well I say
Don’t look for role models on screens
For those of you who do
Consider me a role model
I hope you don't read this and cringe
I appreciate you i appreciate you
So much! I appreciate that you
Believe in me, support me, and in
Some way, hope to live your
Life like me but please, i encourage
You to find role models in the people around
You, the people in your everyday life
The people that are your friends
And family i encourage
You to base your idea of a
Role model off of someone you
Know well enough to see purely
Not in the light, cameras
And actions of Hollywood xo Jennette