Joe Budden - Different Love lyrics

It go, off with my sabbatical
Took a few years 'cause Slaughter's
What I had to do (What up?)
Which only brings me to now
And I oughta be erratical
I say that 'cause my autobiographical is more
So just a graph of you i ain't mad
You did more than what I asked of you
As for me, I did less than what I could've
So though we were a hit
Had to cancel that show
And now my standards so low I be
Amped when she not a hoe
But what you doing right
Now is real commendable
Takes strength to do
'Cause between us there's some
Deep roots there
I gave you the best dick you
Ever got in your life
And stupid me thought it would be
Enough to keep you there
I thought you loved football
I was running through the hole
With the stiff arm
But got disarmed, guess it was just harm
I ain't need to fuck
I was looking for a peer
They say once you stop looking
What you looking for appears
You were stronger than I pictured you
Much stronger than me
And almost just as strong as John
And John, oh, that's just a friend of my moms
With tubes coming out his nose
But shit I never knew why
But he was born with his heart on
The right side of his chest no, for real
His heart's in the right side of his chest
(Word)
Doctors confused, ain’t much that they can do
But impute and say it ain't on
The right side of his chest
Scared he might die in his sleep, deep
Every time he cough wonders if it's
A cough or it's a symptom
Us, we'll get better later
He gon' live his whole life waking
Up every morning to a respirator
So I don't never say what I can't do
If he can be happy with life
Than nigga I can too (Fuck it, I can too)
While José wanna die ain't tell nobody
But eyeing his eyes feel
I should probably identify
Said everyday he lives with pain
And wanna end it
Something's wired wrong in your brain
You gotta mend it
Had a bad breakup and let it expose dude
But, if she was getting you high then
She would get you low too
So who's there to wait on me?
Y'all just get it off
Y'all've put the weight on me
Nigga look me in my eyes
It was amazing to me
And said you don't understand
You not as crazy as me you got gall, nigga
I'm the most mentally flawed nigga
You not even built to
Withstand all I've endured, nigga
You know shit about the thoughts in my head
Or the strength I need daily just
To get out of bed
Just to open my eyes, nigga, open your eyes
The words spoken of wise
You just know in disguise
We can end this right here
I got nuttin' more to say to ya
You ain't never met another
Fucking nigga crazier
Blank stare, couldn't believe 'em
Can't chastised me 'cause I got
Help when you need some
I could give less than a fuck and not a damn
I never be apologetic over who I am
I'm the same me
Nothing changes when the riches do
But niggas wanna suck you dry
Just like the bitches do
They enter your mentions
Sucks to be the center of attention
When you can't even center your attention
Yeah, so I'm fucking out of frustration
They love every second and
Accuse me of persuasion
Jam was a cancer to me, I had to rid it
Red got in her feelings fast
But won't admit it
Dawn I was bored then, never really smithen
V got threatened by the
Thought of competition
Malo wanna fuck all day, don't know how
She why I got a Viagra in my wallet right now
Steph kept it simple, loved me for my mental
B got a nigga, but she used me as her rental
And you, you just give me resistance
Say you need a comfort zone
For you it's distance
I tell 'em all I'm not available emotionally
They start giving me advice
Like they coaching me
I don't even ask it, it's something 'bout
Bipolar sociopath shit
They just find it attractive
Anti-social, but I mingle now
But, I've been arguing much more
Since I've been single, how?
Tell me is this a relationship
Or just a fuckship?
Whatever situation it is it's all fuck shit
I'll admit, I might love a lil differently
As for them
They'd all love to see a different me
Some cried to me, some are begging for it
Some wanna see that change
But not be present for it
You just act so frightened
Ignoring all logic, now she won't buy in
Even in your absence my
Feelings are heightened
Though I know some love's lost
It's not on my end

It's not mine, it's not mine at all