Joe Budden - Downfall lyrics

Yall don't know me
Honestly, I can't say that I blame yall
I don't even really know myself
But, yall probably shouldn't know me

Last thing I'm tryna be is the good guy now
I ain't never gave a fuck, why should I now?
Like the world's interrupting my song
With an interlude
Can't y'all see I'm busy trying
To balance out my chemical? Finishing up
What y'all ain't even begin to do
When your back's against the ropes
It's either him or you
Y'all ain't so important that my
Words are meant for you
When did ey'body become so sensual
Caught up in the he-say, she-say, blog sites
Him and her, broke up, WorldStar, Nahright
Dumb fans, they believe
Everything that y'all write
Found out, friends fake
Couldn't even facade right
Pressures on, won't fail
Nigga got too much to prove
Would've been, lost it
But I got too much to lose
Say what you want about Joe
But I stood my ground
Bitch, I get it up myself
You just put it down they say
I put my whole life on display to my dismay
Stop it, you're carrying on without logic
Let me tell you this about Joe
I only say what I want you to hear
You'll only see what I want to show
Crushing up the Percocet, chasing the high
Talli
I couldn't make this shit up if I tried
The forecast shows a downpour
Y'all just made God cry
Praying for my Downfall

This shit I'm talking 'bout right here
Let me tell you niggas something
You can be anything in this
World that you want except for my downfall

I'm a victim of society
Circumstance or just feelings
Was a nigga victimized? Or just willing?
No blinds, no bags, just dealing
No foundation or floor plan, just building
Check it, nights bright, but the days dark
Covered in tattoos, but hate art
These eggshells I walk on are razor sharp
Staring at the finish line
Looking for a way to start
I've been called everything, an extremist
Is that a bad thing or
What they really mean is
Anything a nigga do, a nigga mean it
And I won't let a person
Place or thing come between it
An opportunist is how they paint me
But, if the nigga only knocks
Once can you blame me?
Still I feel like my problems are great
Shit, if I don't never solve em' I'm straight
On the bright side God choose me to
Put a lot on my plate
So he had to figure I wouldn't
Be bothered by the weight
I'm trying to change the pattern
But it's on loop
Even an outcast in my own group
What's it mean when ey'body standing next
To you expects of you
Everything that comes wit a spectacle?
If everywhere I go
I just leave behind residue
Tell me, trust me
I won't think nothing less of you

I'm sorry I ain't around more
Come up with me, or stay on the ground floor
I don't need shelter from the downpour
Y'all can be whatever you want
Just not my downfall
They tryna make me slow, tryna take me, no!
Can't be my downfall
They tryna knock my grind, I won't stop
I'm fine can't be my downfall

No moment of clarity
The next fight showing is a rarity
Severity in me against my growin popularity
Rappers won't rap
I'm forced to believe they scared of me
But can no longer use the scape goat
'They not aware of me'
So y'all can go and throw
Your little pot shots
Some dudes dissed me and temporarily got hot
I'm getting my head right, recollecting
Y'all looking for some website resurrection
Being that I got too much to lose
Or maybe a slight chance that a nigga
Guilty of all that I'm accused
No longer amused, affected my loved ones
Now they startin' to bruise
And I don't want no parts of that abuse
Wouldn't wish upon my worst foe
A day in my shoes
That'll just eliminate any excuse
And why entertain em'?
Old me would'a lost my senses
Y'all just helping the new me regain em'
Been punched in the face
It was either feed my family
Or hunt wit the 38
I ain't want brunch to wait
I've out grown Hip-Hop
It turned into a Day-Care
So next time some shit is on my mind
It'll stay there
I'm staring at the man in the mirror
But it ain't helping see the man any clearer
So I get MIA from around y'all
Till God stops answering these
Prayers for my downfall


Tell me what am I to do
If I ain't have a soul
A nigga always had you, pardon due
But, I gotta speak candidly
How the FUCK could you abandon me?!
Wit 5 years of blood, sweat and tears
But it was obviously a disconnect
We turned that into a disrespect
Said she been holding it inside for years
She's unhappy so the girl I wan' marry was
Afraid to come and tap me
So I went away on tour
And you went on one of your own
But while you was on the horn
All day wit ol' boy
Did you ever think about what it
Would do to your home?
What's his name? Where's he live?
What is it he offers? What's he got to give?
And I love you so much that when
I caught on to your fibs
I hit you like a man
You wore it in your ribs i was heated
But had to be strong enough to remove
The infidelity and see what's underneath it
Come to find out you felt lied to and cheated
Mistreated, and kept it a big secret
Or are you just loose?
And I'm so naive I'm tryna give you an excuse
Now that I refuse to believe
We life partners
Holy water on whatever devil come
And try to part us
Can't use anything I ever gave you to bury me
You supposed to be the one to bury me
You wan' leave? Then goodbye
Think the grass look greener
On the other side, but it's dye