Joe Budden - Heaven or Hell lyrics
[Joe Budden - Heaven or Hell lyrics]
Gotta watch my back it ain't safe at night
There's too much to do
Gotta get my paper right
And there's a lot of my dogs
They either dead or in jail
But, if I kill myself
Would it be heaven or hell?
Gotta watch my back it ain't safe at night
There's too much to do
Gotta get my paper right
And there's a lot of my dogs
They either dead or in jail
But, if I kill myself
Would it be heaven or hell?
Yo, at this present time there's a
Lot of nonsense at stake
Too many ideas and decisions
Left to contemplate too much to deal wit
Too much to make a nigga have to steal shit
And it's hurtin' 'cause I gotta feel
It with too much anger
Too many niggas know me
But they don't know me
Analayzed popular stranger
And peep how niggas try to change ya
But, I can't cope with
No antidote, two options
One is slittin' my wrists
Go to the precinct with a clip my fist
So I keep a cig in my lips, shit is painful
Fuck suicide done did too much dirt to
Know if I'ma be angel
So help me god, cry in my sleep
'Cause you ain't pull me out of shark
Infested waters to die on the beach
And I was told "don't trust
'cause they plot at the end'
So I treat friends as nobodies
And nobody as friend yo, it just seems like
Trouble's followin' me, lock and key
Stuck in the belly of the beast
And it's swallowin' me with no cream
With no bundle to hustle and no scheme
No niggas to run with and no team
Tell me what it's like to have ran out
Of options when you goin' all out
Or what it's like to be in love and fall out
Just want to put it behind me and
Breathe without the fuckin' 9 to squeeze
Without the weed and Hennessy to
Keep my mind at ease
Without rollin' over, coilin' myself
Tryin' to sleep
Without bein' homeless and starvin
And dyin' to eat
Shit wasn't like this in the youth house
Throughout my teen years been forced
To grow up too fast
Ma'fucker I'm not a youth now
Wish I could let a lot of
People see the true Mouse
But, I'm too scared to see him myself
What'd be the use now?
I done changed too much
I guess the water ran dry
Man I been put through shit
For most of my life
And I done lost my breath
But still I'm tryna fight
I can't take no more
'Cause, I'm dyin' inside
From houses to gas stations
I've done robbed 'em all
Facing ten-to-twenty
That'll start a robber's fall
Jacked whips in parking lots
I got the drop from Fords
And this amount of victims coming
Out a shopping mall
I'm a totally different nigga when
I'm copping the raw apartments with ADT
Got through the locks in the door
I met some dollared out chicks
Somehow I got in the drawers
Seen niggas die in cold blood
They had got shot in the war
Want a seed for the wrong reasons
To see me different
In hopes of me guiding so he'll
Never have to see a prison
But my shorty got it fucked up
Or maybe I just got it fucked up
Somebody got it fucked up
What a nigga got besides his music?
Thirsty as hell, can't smoke the water
'cause I know that I'll abuse it
And ma'fuckers can't afford to
See that fuse lit they can't afford to see a
Nigga on some new shit
And where my pops at? Nigga need him now
Show up later on when I'm black, and fuck
I'm bleedin' now
Showin' my moms another side she
Never seen in me
How the fuck she don't understand when
It's her genes in me?
How'd I progress in therapy while
Wantin' to leave this world?
And I know how to beat the system
Can't beat the world
I talk that "take my own life
To get off the scene quick"
Unfortunate that I'm too much of a
Genius to really mean shit
Gotta watch my back it ain't safe at night
There's too much to do
Gotta get my paper right
And there's a lot of my dogs
They either dead or in jail
But, if I kill myself
Would it be heaven or hell?
I done changed too much
I guess the water ran dry
Man I been put through shit
For most of my life
And I done lost my breath
But still I'm tryna fight
I can't take no more
'Cause, I'm dyin' inside
There's too much to do
Gotta get my paper right
And there's a lot of my dogs
They either dead or in jail
But, if I kill myself
Would it be heaven or hell?
Gotta watch my back it ain't safe at night
There's too much to do
Gotta get my paper right
And there's a lot of my dogs
They either dead or in jail
But, if I kill myself
Would it be heaven or hell?
Yo, at this present time there's a
Lot of nonsense at stake
Too many ideas and decisions
Left to contemplate too much to deal wit
Too much to make a nigga have to steal shit
And it's hurtin' 'cause I gotta feel
It with too much anger
Too many niggas know me
But they don't know me
Analayzed popular stranger
And peep how niggas try to change ya
But, I can't cope with
No antidote, two options
One is slittin' my wrists
Go to the precinct with a clip my fist
So I keep a cig in my lips, shit is painful
Fuck suicide done did too much dirt to
Know if I'ma be angel
So help me god, cry in my sleep
'Cause you ain't pull me out of shark
Infested waters to die on the beach
And I was told "don't trust
'cause they plot at the end'
So I treat friends as nobodies
And nobody as friend yo, it just seems like
Trouble's followin' me, lock and key
Stuck in the belly of the beast
And it's swallowin' me with no cream
With no bundle to hustle and no scheme
No niggas to run with and no team
Tell me what it's like to have ran out
Of options when you goin' all out
Or what it's like to be in love and fall out
Just want to put it behind me and
Breathe without the fuckin' 9 to squeeze
Without the weed and Hennessy to
Keep my mind at ease
Without rollin' over, coilin' myself
Tryin' to sleep
Without bein' homeless and starvin
And dyin' to eat
Shit wasn't like this in the youth house
Throughout my teen years been forced
To grow up too fast
Ma'fucker I'm not a youth now
Wish I could let a lot of
People see the true Mouse
But, I'm too scared to see him myself
What'd be the use now?
I done changed too much
I guess the water ran dry
Man I been put through shit
For most of my life
And I done lost my breath
But still I'm tryna fight
I can't take no more
'Cause, I'm dyin' inside
From houses to gas stations
I've done robbed 'em all
Facing ten-to-twenty
That'll start a robber's fall
Jacked whips in parking lots
I got the drop from Fords
And this amount of victims coming
Out a shopping mall
I'm a totally different nigga when
I'm copping the raw apartments with ADT
Got through the locks in the door
I met some dollared out chicks
Somehow I got in the drawers
Seen niggas die in cold blood
They had got shot in the war
Want a seed for the wrong reasons
To see me different
In hopes of me guiding so he'll
Never have to see a prison
But my shorty got it fucked up
Or maybe I just got it fucked up
Somebody got it fucked up
What a nigga got besides his music?
Thirsty as hell, can't smoke the water
'cause I know that I'll abuse it
And ma'fuckers can't afford to
See that fuse lit they can't afford to see a
Nigga on some new shit
And where my pops at? Nigga need him now
Show up later on when I'm black, and fuck
I'm bleedin' now
Showin' my moms another side she
Never seen in me
How the fuck she don't understand when
It's her genes in me?
How'd I progress in therapy while
Wantin' to leave this world?
And I know how to beat the system
Can't beat the world
I talk that "take my own life
To get off the scene quick"
Unfortunate that I'm too much of a
Genius to really mean shit
Gotta watch my back it ain't safe at night
There's too much to do
Gotta get my paper right
And there's a lot of my dogs
They either dead or in jail
But, if I kill myself
Would it be heaven or hell?
I done changed too much
I guess the water ran dry
Man I been put through shit
For most of my life
And I done lost my breath
But still I'm tryna fight
I can't take no more
'Cause, I'm dyin' inside